Fight [AsahixNishinoya]

Chap 20

"Nishinoya, I'm ace, asexual."

His entire being seemed to relax after getting that statement out. He looks so happy. And I'm honoured that he trusted me enough to come out to me. I'm glad that he's able to express himself. I'm really happy for him, I truly am. Sexualities are weird and can be ridiculously hard to figure out, heck, they're even harder to come to terms with but…

...that means that he doesn't like anyone right? And that would include me…

I felt tears burn at the back of my eyes as the pain of rejection stabbed my heart. I couldn't maintain the smile anymore and crouched down to hide my face. Asahi saw that something was wrong and immediately came by my side. 

"Noya-san? Is everything okay?"

He sounded worried but hurt at the same time. My voice felt weak and I couldn't muster the ability to reply, to assure him that I'm okay. 

So I didn't. 

After the silence passed, he quietly asked with a quivering voice, "Is being ace a bad thing?.."

I squinted my eyes close, forcing myself to respond, "No! no…"

I exhaled and looked at him. There I see a hurt expression mirroring my own. The cool touch of tears lined my cheeks. A crooked smile fell onto my lips as I said, "I'm sorry Asahi, this isn't your fault...It's my own"

He looked at me with confusion and I laughed bitterly, letting more tears fall, "You know what, since you shared an important secret with me, I'll share one with you too. Don't take this to heart though ahah."

Asahi's eyebrows were furrowed as he nodded wordlessly.

"I have a crush on you, Asahi" I smiled at him through the tears. "I love you, and you don't love me back but that's okay. It'll be okay.."

I bit on my lip as my vision blurred even more. Even though I can't see his expression, I could tell that he was shocked silent. I suppressed a laugh. I guess this is the end of our friendship huh? 

And I was right.

"Wait, what do you mean I don't love you back?" Asahi blurted after a moment of silence.

Now it's my turn to be confused.

"A-aren't you ace? Doesn't that mean you aren't attracted to anyone? That you don't wanna be in relationships?"

Asahi reached out to brush away my tears, leaving me wide-eyed.

"Nishinoya.. I actually do like you." He seemed slightly embarrassed but was surprisingly comfortable with admitting that. 

"It's true that I'm not attracted to people sexually but I am romantically. Some aces don't want relationships, and some are also aromantic but uh I'm homoromantic heh." 

I must have looked really confused, cause after he saw my expression, he couldn't help but laugh awkwardly. "It's kinda weird, I know. That's why I was confused for such a long time. But I can confidently say that I love you Noya-san."

Just by saying those few words, Asahi made this sound like it's a dream. It took a while to wrap my head around anything and calm down but once my brain cells started being useful, I couldn't help but ask him questions.

"Wait so does being ace change anything in a relationship?"

"I can't say for everyone but I'm a sex-repulsed ace so uhhh"

"Yep, gotcha, anyways we're too young for that lol"

"hmm anything you're uncomfy with?"
"well I'm not entirely comfortable with kisses yet something about a mouth on another mouth just feels uGhhh"
"i don't understand but thats okAy"
"I don't mind kisses on the cheek though"
"how bout on the forehead?"
"I think thats fine"

And with that I streched over and gave him a peck on his head. I couldn't help but laugh as he covered his red face.

"I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT" Asahi half screamed through his arms. I chuckled a little more before saying, "Okay okay.. I won't do that again, I promise."

Asahi lowered his arms and glance at me before returning his gaze to the floor.

"It was nice though so I don't mind if you do it again…", he mumbled. I felt my face heat up as I burst out laughing.

"H-hey!"
"Sorry sorry-"

I gave him a big hug and said, "I'll give you more kisses don't worry." Asahi exhaled with a half smile as he patted my head. He then flattened my hair and gently pecked the top of my head before saying, "Sure."

Man, I didn't know he could be this smooth.

In the end we both got embarrassed and detached from each other. 

"Is it alright to call you my boyfriend?" I asked with a nervous laugh.

"Of course! Hmm should I call you babe?" He asked jokingly.

My cheeks flamed as i looked away quick with a hand over my mouth.

"Sure" I squeaked from in between my fingers.

Now it's his turn to laugh. "We can take it slow though, it doesn't have to be everything at one time"

"I love you Asahi"
"I love you Noya-san"

hi a few definitions:
Asexual - little to no sexual attraction for anyone
aromantic - little to no romantic attraction for anyone
homoromantic - romantic attraction to someone of the same gender
pansexual - attraction to all genders with no preference/genderblind

of course people may define their sexualities a little differently but that's okay too :)) AND REGARDLESS OF YOUR SEXUALITY YOU ARE VALID AND ACCEPTED this is a safe space <3 (i myself am a genderfluid demibi so)

apologies for the lack of updates, life happened (and now i got a gf :D) tbh ive finished writing this story a long time ago i just didn't upload it since i was going to continue it after this chapter but i got lazy oops. this seems like a good end though