His Secret Obsession

Fake

Third period is gym class, the only other class I have with Azazel besides 1st period. Of course the boys and girls are separated, so technically we arnt in the same class, but I can still see her over 70% of the time. Its my 2nd favourite time of day.

Today she wore jogging pants and a sports bra. Its the beginning of spring so its still not very warm outside. Today the girls class is playing soccer while my class is free to either run laps on the track around the feild, or play basketball inside.

I'll obviously chose the first option, and its expected by the gym teacher that I would. I have quite a few competitions coming up. Although I don't actually care about that, I care that Ill be able to watch Azazel.

I can see the outline of her abs on her stumach whenever she contracts them, which happens alot while shes playing. Shes fast, and good with the ball. If she was on the soccer team she'd be one of the best players.

I like when she doesn't wear a shirt for gym class. I like staring at her small waist, her visible muscles. I try not to stare at inappropriate parts of her body, I feel like enough of a creep already I don't want to feel like a pervert too.

I run for the entire period without break and with ease. My gym teacher doesn't care if I listen to music while I run either. I listen to artists that I know azazel likes, ones Ive heard her talk about. By the end of class I can see small beads of sweat run down her body. I have to divert my attention because it turns me on. I get to shower after gym class anyway, which I always need for more than one reason.

Sometimes during gym class she puts her hair up into a single ponytail, only if she wore her hair down that day. Its the only time she every wears the hairstyle. I like when she does it, especially when shes not wearing a shirt. Its the only time I ever get to see her back. It also lets me see her more clearly. The way her chest moves up and down when she breathes heavily. How she runs her fingers through the waistband of her pants during breaks.

I wasn't actually this obsessed with her from the start. It was about a month after I first saw her when I realized something something about her. She became an unsolvable puzzle, even for me.

To explain it in a way most people can comprehend I would say that she is fake. Her entire personality that she has at school is fake, which is a very difficult thing to do. To think different, act different, speak different, all so efficiently that you would never guess she wasn't naturally that way. To put things into perspective for those familiar with the myers-briggs personality test(mbti), while Azazel is at school she an ESFP, people with this personality are considered extroverted, spontaneous, enthusiastic, empathetic, cooperative and confident.

While not here she is an INTJ. The complete opposite in every tested category. INTJ are strategic, rational, structured and introverted. The only aspect both personalities share is confidence.

Therefore at school shes just a persona. No one knows anything about the real Azazel.

I am also an INTJ, which means we are actually very similar even if at school we are opposites. Id like to think if she were herself at school that we would be friends.

The part I haven't been able to figure out is both why and how. The amount of mental focus and dedication to successfully pull off what she is doing is almost incomprehensible.

Through my realization of her personality I have been able to deduct which interests she has are real or fake. She does genuinely like to read. She doesnt enjoy party's. She enjoys playing violin and piano. She doesn't like karaoke.

Her friends would all say the opposite.

"Damn, Zazel really tore up that feild."

I instantly tune into the locker room conversation.

"Man, she was killing it out there." replys one of the other guys who also chose to run. They actually walked majority of the class, too obvious in their interest of the girls soccer game.

"Why isn't she on the girls soccer team? that uniform would look- actually what she wears during gym is better."

Being competitive and utilizing that amount of energy makes it more difficult to maintain her persona. Thats why shes not on a single sports team.

"You should come with me to watch the next soccer game, Veronica has been doing insan-"

With the change in conversation I head to the showers.