Behind Closed Doors

05 - i got you.

"Um. Okay, I guess. I still feel like I could puke any second but hey. At least I'm not pregnant."

"I think that's more of a sign that you are pregnant, darling."

"Here. Have some," she says holding out the spoon with batter on it.

"I actually don't want any today.. I'm not super hungry."

"You didn't eat at all yesterday, darling. Is your eating-"

"No! It's not. It's not. I just know I'll throw it up if I eat something." She looks me up and down and sighs.

"Are you sure-"

"Yes! Yes, Alyssa, I'm sure!" I say.

"The bitch ain't sure. She hasn't eaten in days. It's definitely starting up again because you're back to leggings and hoodies and not because it's cooling down outside," Zoey says. I look at her.

"Speak when you can walk straight, Zoey."

"I can walk straight! Bitch!" She says.

"Sure, Zo. I'm fine."

"If it's so bad your goddamn rival noticed, Zelly, I don't think it's fine," Zoey says.

"What?" I ask looking at her.

"Yeah. She sent me a text asking if I could feed you as much as I could. So I have."

"When?!"

"The day before she came over, I dunno." My face drops.

The Polaroid.

Was that of me? Was she comparing that picture to me now?

When the hell did she get a picture of me?

"Did she mention something about a photo? Like a Polaroid?"

"Girl I dunno! Read it!" She says shoving her phone in my face.

Nat 🫶🏼
Hey, Zo?

Me:
Hi nat

Nat 🫶🏼:
Is Hazel eating?

Me:
I mean she ate breakfast this morning but not dinner last night.

Nat 🫶🏼:
She's gotten skinny again, Zo. Like dangerously skinny. I took this picture of her once when she was 19 and recovered, and fuck she looks sick again. Can you please feed her whenever you can? Please?

Me:
Yeah. Me and Lyss have been trying. We're noticing too. She always eats around us but it's always small sizes. I think she's doing it so we don't worry.

Nat 🫶🏼:
Thanks for trying. Honestly. It's heartbreaking to see her fall back into this. Especially since when she was recovered you'd never see her without a snack

Me:
So you? Sorry. Sorry.

Nat 🫶🏼:
girl bye I'm off limits

Me:
No shit you're Hazel's.

Nat 🫶🏼:
🤭

"What?! What the fuck does that emoji mean?!" I say.

"I dunno," she says. I text back.

Me:
Ik it's like 3 days later but what exactly does "🤭" mean??

Nat 🫶🏼:
Nice try, peanut.

"Fuck!!" I say handing it back to her.
"How does she know it's me?!"

"Cause she's in love with you and knows every single one of your mannerisms, the way you text, and your scent," Zoey says.