False God | Conrad Fisher

nine, are we still friends?

❁ FALSE GOD ❁

SHELBY, i walked into my room and slammed the door, i stood at the foot of the bed and fell down to the floor crying, i took out my phone to call clary but she wouldn't answer, i then see a message from her, i looked at the message and it said, 'this is clary's mom, i'm sorry honey, she isn't feeling herself right now and she's in a coma, she tried to do bad things to herself'. i started crying more

clary always had suicidal thoughts, she told me every time she wanted to but i always told her to never do it, i love her too much, that's why she had to tell me she will never see me again because she had to go to an asylum to help her get better and because she wanted to kill herself.

i opened my door and knocked onto jeremiah's door, i knocked 5 times but no answer, i went over to belly's room and knocked and she opened the door, i walked up to her and hugged her tightly, "it's clary" i sobbed into her shoulder, she rubbed my back, "she's gonna be fine. she will get though it." belly told me and i could hear sniffling from the tears rolling down her eyes.

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after a while of crying, we both cried ourselves to sleep. it was already night at the time. i looked at the clock and it said '8:49', i slowly got out of belly's bed while she peacefully slept on her left side, i slowly opened her door and closed it then ran into my bedroom from  across the hall and i saw conrad trying to help his mother up the stairs, "hey shels! good night and don't let the bugs bite" susannah smiled, "good night susannah." i kissed her cheek good night and she kissed my forehead, i smiled and conrad took her into the room

PLAY "ARE WE STILL FRIENDS" by TYLER THE CREATOR NOW

i opened my closet, and looked in all draws for a cute swimsuit for a night swim. i finally found this blue one with poka dots on it and put it on, i took a towel and ran down to the pool, i dove in and started doing different techniques for swimming, i then swam underneath the water to see jere, i smiled and we swam back up to the surface, "is this one of your solo night swims, or can I join?" he asked, "sure." i looked down, "oh, shels." he said, "what?"i chuckled, "are you sad you broke up with simon?" he asked

"no, it, um... it was the right thing. what is it?" i splashed him and laughed, "It's nothing. everything . you're my best friend. there were times I wanted it to be more." he said, "really? uh... why didn't you say anything?" i asked, "well, there was always Conrad. then, this summer, it was simon. and I guess I was just waiting." he sighed, "for me?" i slightly grinned, "yeah. do you think you could ever..." i cut him off, "yes. yes." i smiled

Susannah told me that when I was born, she knew I was destined for one of her boys. I always hoped it would be Conrad. but here I am, about to kiss Jeremiah Fisher.

he took my hand and we looked straight into each other eyes, we both then leaned in, his lips touched mine, they were so soft and warm, but i didn't get fireworks like i got when i kissed conrad. he then stood in the water and held me up while we made out. his hands went to my waist and mine went into his hair and onto his neck. he then had slipped tongue into the session and mine as well. my legs were now wrapped around jere. we stopped for a moment for a breath. then i leaned back in. his lips hit my lips again.

we stopped and got out of the pool and we ran into the house, hand in hand. we ran up the stairs and we passed conrad's room. i saw him sitting on his bed looking at his phone. we ran towards my room which was near conrad's room and you can see everything. it was a clear shot for looking into my room. before we closed the door, jere latched his lips onto mine and i could see from the corner of my eye, conrad was looking at us. he got up and walked towards his room, "don't have s€x in front of me" he gagged, and closed his door including an eye roll came our way, jere finally had closed my door and he dropped me onto my bed.