Notice Me

Chapter 7- Step 6 'Confusion' and Skype calls.

"Feelings never do, They get you all confused, then they drive you around for hours before they drop you right back where you started."

- Blair Waldorf, Gossip Girl

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Crystal

There comes a time, when you have a crush on someone for a longish time,then you start to doubt that they like you back, you try sending signals to say that you 'want to talk' or that you 'still like them so make a move buddy'. You text all the time, after school, but you never talk in real life. You then see them hanging out with different people, you see that they've almost changed in a way, they aren't the person you liked. In my case, Gabe starts hanging out with this girl her names Anna, she's ever girls dream body, skinny, blonde and pretty. But to me she's not a very nice person, I find her mean and rude but to Gabe she's properly the nicest and prettiest girl there. I start feeling sad, looking over at him and see him looking at her, joking with her and laughing, I hate it, I'm wondering why that can't be me.

It's now been a week, still the same thing, him hanging out with her.

It's now two weeks and I can't remember why I ever liked him, he was amazing to me but now he's just another guy I've had a crush on, he just a face to me. I used to think he was amazing, used to think that he was like me, and I admit I think I only liked him because he talked to me, because he looked at me and I thought he liked me because he looked and talked to me. And I can tell because like two to three weeks later I forgot about why I liked him, I forgot why he made my heart beat, why he made me blushed.

I started to become great friends with these guys, there is Patrick, he's a real Australian, he's got the thick accent and the spirit. He has browny red hair and green eyes and is a hockey player.

Then there's Jace, he has blackish brown hair and brown eyes, he's a hip hop dancer and is really good.

There's also Jason who I've known since primary school but never really talked to. He's got blonde-brown hair and brown eyes.

All the guys are really nice but there's this one guy who's one of the nicest people I've ever met. He's sweet and amazing, He's name is Alex and he has blackly brown hair and brown eyes that change to green sometimes.
Lately we've been calling and texting each other basically every night, We have heaps in common and are really close friends. My friends are kind of confused because I suddenly started liking him even though like one week ago I liked Gabe. I started to realise that I didn't have a chance with Gabe, we had nothing in common, I was changing myself to be the person he would like, liking things that I didn't quite like. But with Alex I could be myself, we could talk about the most stupidest things for hours. We become soo close that I think I started to like him, he is sweet and cute and all round a great person and we really connected. Around this time Patrick and Poppy started liking each other and in about two days they were going out, sports day to be exact, it was cute, they really liked each other. About three or so days later Alex asked my out, or to be exact he asked if we wanted to take this (our relationship) to the next level, over a skype call actually. It was so sweet and the Saturday after we had a double date thing with Patrick and Poppy, we went to his house and just sat watched movies and cuddled. I don't know how it happened with Patrick and Poppy but it happened sooo fast. One minute they're together and then the next they're not, I was stunned. Everything happened so fast and it confused the hell out of me.

I was getting caught in the middle, I was the venting person, I was the person everyone went to, did any of them think that maybe I needed to talk to someone? That I didn't want to be that person? Did they know that this was hurting me too? That I felt so bad, that I felt like I was being dragged in two directions. I was being told to pick sides when I didn't?

The dark become my best friend and worst enemy at the same time, it was when I could just lie there and think but with thinking comes scenarios and memories, some good and some bad. Night time was when my inspirational side comes out, I keep telling myself inspirational quotes and sayings. In year 7 I was really into quotes and sayings, I loved knowing that there was a saying for anything, any scenarios, any problem, any situation. My iPod - yes that's right iPod, the old fashion thing that only played music, games and took back camera photos, - the camera roll was full of inspirational quotes and saying and some were photos of hot guys or Hayes Grier. Since lately my nights have been filled with talking to Alex over messager about the most random things ever. It's been great, I've actually been able to fall asleep, sometimes half way though talking to him, but I've actually gotten sleep which I never really did because my mind was running crazy, with everything, school, friends, homework that I didn't do and was due tomorrow. But for some weird reason my mind and thoughts where taken up by a certain person and no not the guy you think, no, someone completely different. Someone who got me, who was there for me when I needed them, someone who had my heart beating so fast and a smile continually on my face and blushing. Someone who I might be falling for.....

Alex....

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Hey guys!!!
Long time no update I know please don't kill me..
This hasn't been edited soo please excuse any terrible mistakes. I hope I will get around to updating again soon, I had a bit of writers block but I'm good now.
See you guys next update.

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