Notice Me

Chapter 3- Step 2 'Yep, I like him'

Picture of Poppi above^

"I can't wait for the day for you to say you've had a crush on me"

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Right at the end of the year I really started to like him, the kind of like where you start to look forward to the class you have together, even if your in PE or something where your with another year 9 class just so you can see him. This happened to me at the end of year 9, I started really looking forward to tech were I could have a conversation with him and looking forward to science even if I don't talk to him and I can't even see him. I start to hope he will finally actually start a conversation instead of me starting it and not getting a reply for hours.

You start dreaming about situations you could found yourself in, like suddenly he realizes that he really likes you and he asks you out or you go somewhere suddenly and leave him and he realizes he loves you and comes chasing after you just to say that he loves you. You start to believe that he will suddenly notice you and realize how pretty and smart you are and start to like you. You believe that all those romance books will suddenly happen to you and your life will turn out like a Noah Sparks movie/book. But the thing is life isn't a romance book on wattpad, it isn't a Noah Sparks book, life is unpredictable, you never know what will happen, anything could happen, something unexpected could happen in a matter of time, one second life could be good and then the next second everything could go terribly wrong. Same with crushes. life could be good, you think they like you back because you see him smiling at you but then life goes down, you see him hanging out with a different group, with slutty girls. You feel terrible even if it's only for a day that he hangs out with them, you feel let down because you thought he was sweet and wouldn't get in trouble. Next minute you see him leaving the school with a d-head and return later with a drink, why would he do that?

You start believing that he's changed, that he's not a sweet or kind as you thought.

This happened to me during step 2.

Step 2 - The 'Yep, I like him' phrase.

During this step/phrase you do everything I mentioned before, you start dreaming of possible scenarios: he suddenly likes you and you run away together, you have a high school reunion and fall madly in love and get married and live happily ever after. You start believing that he likes you to because he smiles at you, tries to make conversations with you and wants to get to know you. He starts hanging out a Little closer to you and your friends, you catch him looking at you and when you have no classes together he still remembers your name. I'm not saying that this WILL happen to you, every guy is different, you could like the mysterious guy who doesn't talk much but your friends catch looking at you or you can feel looking at you in class. You may like the soccer guy, who you don't have many/any classes with and hangs out on the other side of the oval. You may like the guy who hangs out with a group of d-heads and does some stupid stuff. You may like a guy you don't even know or isn't even in your year but he plays soccer in the same spot you hang out and you find him really hot. You may like the loner of the school, who has no one to talk to and you always see them sitting by themselves. It doesn't matter who you like or what group they belong in, it's someone that you find cute or sweet or hot and it's someone you obsess about for weeks with your friends or on your own. It's someone that makes you feel special or makes you want to go to school just to see. I think people are stupid to judge you on who you like, their stupid to think that it matters because who you like doesn't concern anyone else but you.

Also in this phrase you find yourself making a bigger deal about you appearance, whether that's wear a little more makeup or wearing a little less, whether it's the way you do your hair or the way you smile in front of them. You start worrying about what they like of you and how they see you when they should like you for you, not the girl your trying to be. You shouldn't be seen as the girl that trys to hard, you shouldn't be seen as the girly girl when you really are a tomboy or you hate putting on dresses or makeup and high heels and find it more comfortable to wear jeans and jumper and vans or sneakers. You don't want your crush to see you as someone you're not.

Another thing that happens during this phrase/step is you can't stop thinking about them and what they could be during right at this moment, whether they're talking/messaging someone or whether they're trying to think of someone smart and clever to say to you. You starting thinking about whether they've told their friends and when you're not there he gets teased or they talk about you.

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In my personal experience (even though it's not very much because I never really got to this stage because I figured out they didn't like me) this step isn't very long, it takes about a week to 2 weeks before you start to change your appearance and start thinking and believing things. With Gabe I started wearing a little less makeup and spent more time on my hair which I normally left down or half up half down but in a stylish way. I starting thinking if they clothes were too boring or not flattering enough for me. I started looking forward to texting him after school, if we did. I started telling my friends everything we talked about to see if they thought he liked me or not, and sadly enough I started dreaming about different scenarios that could happen and I started looking forward to class where I could just look at him. My sleepovers with my friends started to become a worry, I was always scared they would do something, like text him a weird message or send him a bad photo of me but at the same time I was excited to tell my friends about him and show they the conversations we had.

I started to REALLY like him and that kind of scared me. I'm scared of not having someone there for me, I'm scared of losing people whether that's family, friends or crushes.

I'm scared of being alone. Left alone in this world.

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Hey guys,

Chapter 3 done and dusted. Sorry if there's any spelling mistakes or errors. hehe I'm not that great at English... ANYWAYS hope you enjoyed it.

Picture above is of Poppi^

By the way I'm sort of picturing Gabe as Dylan O'Brien only with glasses, like from The Internship movie.

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love,

Chlo xxx