"Ugh! I'm going to sleep! Suit yourself!" I said in defeat at nag-martsa na paakyat ng kwarto ko.
"Good night, Selena! I'll text you!" narinig kong sigaw niya habang paakyat ako ng hagdan. Madiin akong napapikit sa pinaghalong inis at kalabog ng dibdib.
"Fuck you!" I shouted and continue to march my way towards my room. I can hear her laughs until the last step of the stair's kaya padabog kong isinara ang pinto ng kwarto ko sa inis!
Even in the heated thumping of my chest ay pinilit kong kalmahin ang sarili. I let out a frustrated sigh before sinking myself on my bubble bath. Marahan kong hinaplos ang bulang bahagyang umapaw sa tub dahil sa paglubog ko. Suddenly remembering what happened on the parking lot.
My chest suddenly tightens when I remember how her ocean-blue eyes glistens on the dark night. How she pleaded for me to tell what's wrong, why am I angry and how she tried to allure me still even in that exhausted state.
Even in my blitzed thoughts, I could still feel how shivering her breath is as she whispers those words on my ears. How she silently uttered that she didn't want me running away from her.
At kung paano niya ako kinulong sa isang yakap after telling me what she's been up too makes me want to submerge myself more in the mixture of embarrassment and confirmed feelings towards her.
Nang tanungin niya kung ano ang problema ko, para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig. It's like she asked me a question I already knew the answer all along, hindi ko lang maamin – ayoko lang aminin.
I cannot let those kinds of emotions get the best of me. Wala akong oras at panahon para sa mga ganoong bagay, besides I'm sure as hell it will get more than complicated if I enter that kind of stuff.
I can't gamble my whole life, my career and myself for such uncertainty. For something fleeting such as this kind of thing.
Baka na-caught up lang ako sa moments na kasama ko siya. Maybe I just enjoyed her company or miss the feeling of having a friend. It's not something like that, I don't like her like that. I don't want her like that. I can't.
I decided to go wash up and put everything to rest. Masyado lang akong pagod, idagdag pa ang alak kaya naiisip ko itong mga ganitong bagay. Bukas makalawa, wala na 'rin ito.
After my night routine ay pagod akong nahiga sa kama. I feel like a lot has happened today at sobrang ubos ang energy ko hanggang bukas! Buti na lang at isang beach dinner lang ang schedule ko bukas.
Nang abutin ang phone para tignan ang iilang habilin ni George ay nakita ko agad ang message ni Ivah.
From: Ivah
You mad I'm kissing other girls? Enjoy your ride home!
Napa-irap na lang ako dahil sa reply sa huling text ko. I decided not to reply to Ivah anymore at nagbadya ng patayin ang phone ng mag-vibrate iyon.
Agad napakunot ang noo ko ng makitang galing kay Emir ang message na iyon.
From: Emir
I'm laying on the bed now. Are you asleep?
Marahan akong napakagat sa pang-ibabang labi ng Mabasa iyon.
To: Emir
Share mo lang? Obviously, not. Go to sleep, Emir.
From: Emir
Sungit. I just want to say good night, Selena. I'm home now.
The sudden thump on my chest rises again when I read her last words. Marahan akong huminga ng malalim para kalmahin ang sarili bago nag-tipa ng reply.
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