Loving You With My Hands Tied ✔️

Kabanata 16: Yearn For You

Before him.

He's always been my first to everything together with my family. And now I have to let go of my dreams because of my responsibility as a Dixon.

"Sasabihin ko sa CREED kapag final na yung kasal na'tin, Geneva. Don't worry, we'll work together and we will end them, alright?" he smiles.

Kahit na gano'n ko kamahal si Dominic, isa lang ang gusto ko sa kanya at yun ay maging masaya siya. I promised myself to always make him smile, to give him a life he deserves.

"If... this person is close to you and to your family, then this person probably knows who Dominic is, Silas..."

Oh fuck.

Now there's another reason for me to accept this.

"You might be right."

"Kapag kinasal tayong dalawa, they would see it as threat, new power, but it can also mean that they could get closer to Dominic because you and I would be family, right?"

"Yes." tango niyang sagot.

It's risky.

But it's a good plan, getting married so we can catch them off-guard, it would make sense.

If the person is close to Silas and to his family, then it'll be easier to find them now, but we also need to be careful because if they are that close then tulad din ng sinabi ni Silas...

...they would kill his family because they know everything about them now.

"I want to think about this properly, Silas. And if we're going to do this, we need to make it look like we've been eyeing each other for a while and that... we don't see each other as friends anymore."

"Alright, I understand."

It's going to be hard for me to process this.

Kahit na sinabi ko na iisipin ko 'to ng mabuti, wala na 'kong choice, this is a good fucking plan for me to run away from.

I will marry Silas Nakamoto, shit.

Ilang plato rin ng cake ang nilamon ko sa inis at sakit, magdidiet sana ako kaso grabe lang talaga yung pinagdaanan ko today kaya wala na 'kong pake sa salad salad na yan.

I told them myself walang pwedeng makaalam ng pinagusapan naming dalawa ni Silas, we'll tell them one day just now.

What's important is thinking about today and what I'm going to do after I accept the marriage proposal.

I thought I was going to be okay until I saw Dominic inside my office, nag-tama ang mga mata namin sa isa't-isa, imbes na ang maramdaman ko ay galit dahil sa ginawa niya, ang naramdaman ko lang ay sakit.

"You're here, Geneva." ngiti niyang bati sa'kin.

Nag-iba ang ekspresyon ng mukha niya at ibinaba niya yung mga dokyumento na hawak niya sa ibabaw ng lamesa ko, unti-unti siyang naglakad papalapit sa'kin pero agad akong humakbang papaatras mula sa kanya.

"G-Geneva? What's wrong?"

I can't handle this right now.

I can't handle him looking at me like this.

Kinakabahan ako at natatakot ako na baka may lumabas sa bibig ko na hindi niya pwedeng marinig.

I need to get away from him.