And of course, taxes.
This is a document for me to give my sisters and my family as a reason why I think Silas is the perfect husband for me.
This is fucking crazy, naiimagine ko na nga yung reaksyon nila kapag tinanggap ko 'tong marriage proposal ni Silas.
What the actual fuck?
I know that I want to reject his proposal, never ko naisip o naimagine na baka magpakasal kami kasi kaibigan ko siya at may mahal akong iba.
Pero ngayon pinagiisipan ko na ng mabuti kung tatanggapin ko ba 'to o hinde, kung hindi lang niya sinama yung Villanueva e 'di sana kanina ko pa 'to tinaggihan.
"They would see this as a threat, they would back away, they would stop their plans, and then we'll catch them in action."
"Silas, we're getting married, do you understand that? Marriage is like once in a lifetime!" tumayo ako sa inis.
I can't do this. I can't imagine a life, a marriage life with Silas!
Ang gusto ko ay ang ikasal kay Dominic, siya lang naman yung lalaking minahal ko, siya lang din yung lalaking iniisip ko gabi gabi, siya lang.
It's my dream to be with him, to get married to him.
Alam ko na nasaktan niya 'ko dahil sa ginawa niya pero at the end of the day siya pa rin ang mahal ko at mamahalin ko.
So to get married to another man is fucking torture.
Because how? How would you breathe after that?
After the truth that you'll never be able to live a life with the love of your life?
How do you live after that?
How do you walk past that shit?
"Alam ko kung anong nasa isip mo, Geneva... but this is important and I didn't want to use this against you but..." huminga siya ng malalim bago siya tumayo at humarap ulet sa'kin.
"...this person might be one of those people who tortured Dominic for years."
Oh shit, he really went for it, huh?
Pinikit ko ang mga mata ko at umupo ulet sa sofa habang sinusubukan kong pakalmahin ang sarili ko dahl ayokong umiyak, kakaiyak ko lang tapos iiyak nanaman ulet ako?
This is so fucking painful.
"Wala na bang ibang paraan? Bakit 'di na lang si Norvina o... o... si Cerine?" naiiyak kong tanong.
"Please, Geneva..." he kneeled before me and wiped the tears pouring from my eyes.
Damn it, damn it! Wala na ba talagang ibang paraan?
Bakit kasal? Inisip ko nang mabuti kung bakit 'di na lang gawing peke ang kasal pero doon ko rin naisip na malapit na yung Villanueva kaya agad na nilang malalaman kung peke o hinde, we need to make it real if... we are getting married.
"Ano ng gagawin ko, Silas? Mahal ko siya... I... I can't get married to you." bulong ko sa kanya.
"I know that. But we, you and I? We were born for this, to protect the country, we're basically members of the CREED now, it is our duty to end the Villanueva bloodline."
"But..."
So this is what Aida meant, huh?
Responsibilities always come first before desire, before dreams, before... life.
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