Loving You With My Hands Tied ✔️

Kabanata 2: Hold My Hand

"I don't feel good, do you mind if I just step back early for tonight, I'm sorry..." I said, taking another deep breath.

"What happened?" tanong ni Karine, seryoso ang tingin niya sa'kin at gano'n na rin yung mga tingin sa'kin nila Cerine and our parents.

"Just... I don't feel good, please, mom, dad?" I asked, almost begging.

"Fine, I'll order the maids to take care of you, alright?"

"Yes, baby, you need some help..."

"Okay lang naman po ako, kaya ko na po yung sarili ko, I'll see you later..." I smiled at them again, tumayo ako at naglakad papunta sa hagdanan.

Pero nang pataas na 'ko sa hagdanan may naramdaman akong pamilyar na presensiya sa may gilid ko, it was enough for a shiver to spread throughout my body, what is this feeling? Natigil ako sa unang plataporma ng hagdanan sabay lingon sa may gilid kung saan may hallway na kumukunekta from the maid rooms to the kitchen.

I only saw the maids with their hands behind their back who seems to be focused on us and now on me.

What is wrong with me? Baka naman kasi may multo dito sa mansion na 'to? Looks like kailangan kong lumipat ah, I can't live with a ghost, I can't!

"Excuse me,"

Ha?

Nag-tama ang mga mata ko sa mga mata ng taong nagsalita sa harap ko, I didn't realize na may tao pala sa taas ng hagdana, just a few stairs away from me. He's wearing a white shirt with his long hair tied up in a low pony-tail, nakapantalon din siya at nakasuot siya nang sneakers.

What the fuck... what the actual fuck? Who is this boy? What is he doing here? Siya yung lalaking nakabangga ko kanina sa garden! How did he get here? I thought he was already taken care of!

Shit, yung dibdib ko, ang sikip! It was the same feeling earlier but this time around it feels much more intense.

"Do you need help, Ms. Dixon?"

Even his fucking voice... seriously! Nababaliw nanaman ako! Hindi ako mapakali, masyado akong kinakabahan, nakakahiya kasi alam kong nakatitig pa rin sa'kin yung buong pamilya ko and now I'm stuck, I'm fucking stuck and in so much anxiety due to this boy!

"Ms. Dixon?"

I have to go, I have to run! I have to fucking run and get the hell away from him before I say or do something that woul--

"Ms. Dixon!"

It all happened too fast, I was just about to run upstairs without anyone's help when I stepped on the wrong side of the stairs and almost fell backward.

But instead... I felt a whole arm around my waist and a hand on my wrist, the boy saved me from falling backward without me realizing that I was just about to potentially die.

Our eyes are much closer to each other, even our bodies and his... presence... his face, fuck!

Fuck!

Dark-brown eyes that light up when you're much closer, and his lips, his lips so temp--

No, no! Ano nanamang pinagiisip ko? Ba't saan saan napupunta yung mga mata ko? Shit! I've gone mad!

This is crazy!

This can't be happening!

"Ms. Dixon." I was brought back to reality immediately with his eyes still focused on me.