Forever & Always

28: Forever & Always

Edited: 02/07/2022

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Waking up the next morning was easy since I did not get to sleep in the first place. I spent the entire night tossing and turning. After it hit four in the morning, I gave up trying to sleep and crept out of Caleb's room and into mine.

I still did not think that I could ever fully forgive mum, but I did want to try and smooth things over a little bit. I could not lose both of my parents. We argued every time that we spoke so I decided to write her a letter instead. That way, she can read it over, think about it and respond, hopefully, in a calm way.

One I started writing, it all just poured out onto the paper.

To Mum,

I hated how we left things yesterday. I do not know how to talk to you without arguing so I am just going to write everything down in this letter.

First off, I just wanted to say that I am glad that you found someone to be happy with. You deserve happiness after Dad.

Why did you think you should hide and lie about everything? I thought you knew me better than that. I thought you knew that I would be happy for you.

However, what I am not happy about is how you managed the situation. You have completely and utterly destroyed me and our relationship with your actions.

I needed you yet you were nowhere.

It honestly feels like something better came along for you, so you completely left us behind without a second thought.

I am going to be completely honest with you, I do not know if I will ever be able to move on entirely from this. With work from both sides, I might learn to forgive you but the reality is that our relationship will never be the same.

I do not plan to come home at the moment. I am going to continue staying here or stay with some friends.

Bye Mum x

I felt better after writing everything down on the paper. It felt like some sort of closure. I made a mental reminder to myself to drop this in mum's letter box sometime today.

Once it hit six in the morning, I walked downstairs to get breakfast. As I walked into the kitchen, I noticed Julie standing there cooking up the eggs.

"Good morning. How are you feeling?" she asked.

"I am better, thank you" I smiled.

"I did want to talk to you about something. I know that it might be a little hard to go home at the moment, so I just wanted to let you know that you are more than welcome to stay here for as long as you want. This is your home now too".

"Thank you" I smiled.

"I know you were looking at houses yesterday so if you want to live here until the new year when you move then I would love to have you. Obviously, you would have to run it past your mum first" she said, pulling me into a hug.

"I will let her know but I do not want to go home. Thank you for letting me stay" I said squeezing her tight.

Julie and I ate breakfast and talked before she left for work.