𝐓𝐞𝐱𝐚𝐬 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐭 | 𝐓.𝐇

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟐 ; 𝐩𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝟐𝟎

I sighed "oh gosh im sorry" she said and threw the bottle away. I thought she'd go help but I guess not. I got up and went to clean it. I looked at my knees and seen them all red with little cut marks from the wood.

I passed Hoyt while cleaning and seen him point to his watch not saying a word
I was confused of what this meant
What did he mean by that? I thought while cleaning the last window.

"Hey I'll be out in the barn looking at the pigs" Bianca said before leaving I always wondered why she would go out there for a bit. Maybe it was her alone time or something. I hated that I wasn't always trusted like she was I mean it's not like I left for almost 7 years before coming back

I knew I was just jealous. I mean she had anything and everything. A beautiful body with curves, nice volumes hair. Beautiful tan skin and a sweet accent unlike mine. She had a family who loved her and a man who loved her as well...she had Thomas
She had the Hewitt and sawyer family. She had the big group of friends.

I felt some tears run down before getting up "I'm gonna use the bathroom" I said before running up the stairs shutting the door. I cried silently and looked at my self
I seen the scissors nearby and looked at my long hair.

I heard the voices again "cut it...cut your hair" "cut yourself" "cut the wood...get out!" They would all say

"Your not alone...I'm behind you" one person said I looked in the mirror and seen two people and one pointed to the knife
"Do it" they all chanted

I picked up the scissors and cut my hair, I cut it to my shoulder. It was a crappy job but it's not like I cared. I started to laugh uncontrollably while still crying. I seen the two figures turn to dust vanishing

I heard loud thumps come to the door before hearing banging. I shook me out and I hid behind the curtain of the shower. I sat in the tub and curled myself in a ball.

I cried but I couldn't let out a single word before hearing one final bang and I felt a air of the door get pushed out and move the curtains. I seen the tall figure move before opening the curtain fast.

I looked up still crying and seen Thomas stop in his tracks. He just looked at me blankly with no emotion or movement.
Soon he shut the bathroom door with us both in and he crouched down. He looked to the floor to see the hairs and then to my arms and legs. He seen all the cuts and bruises from different things.

But he seen the fresh cuts of what I did. I felt his large hand touch my hair and put it behind my ear. I sniffed looking at him. He put his other hand on my hand and moved mine to his cheek. He closed his eyes and leaned into the touch.

For that moment I felt safe, I felt as if I could stay here forever. I know what comes ahead though. I can't have him make me feel good when I know my end is near. I pulled away and got up slowly.

I seen him watch my movements, I made my way out the bath and into my room. I walked in about to close my door until I felt it hit something.

Turning I seen Thomas come in the room he grabbed my hand softly and took me to bed. He seen I was still in my old clothes. Pointing to the bathroom he tilts his head waiting for my answer. "I'm tired..I'll do it tomorrow" I yawned and sat on the edge of my bed

Thomas grabbed my hand and pulled me up "take off your clothes" he said lowly
I haven't heard him talk a full sentence until now. I nod and pulled my dress down

I seen him stiffen before he opened the covers of the bed. I got in and looked at him "go eat dinner...I'll be fine Bianca probably waiting" I said and turned from him drifting to sleep

I heard him sigh before slowly shutting my door and hearing him walk away

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The sun came up and I seen the time. I had no energy to get up. I felt so jagged.
Staying in bed I smelt the dust roam around the room. I would see the dust particles when it came in touch with the sunlight.

I seen Luda Mae come in she shut the door and walked to me. I looked at her
"Morning" I said my voice was getting scratchy "hon...we need to talk" she said

I knew it..this was it
I got up "no!no wait! I'm sorry!" I said to
Her. "Hon your ok don't you worry. I just need you too rest for now. Your sick so hears some soups" she sat it down

"Take rest, and call Thomas if you need him." She smiled and walked out

I turned and looked back at the dust
I wish I could turn into it..

I'm feeling I lose energy and my lack of enjoyment deteriorate day by day..