𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐲 ( 𝑺𝒐𝒏𝒈𝒘𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑺𝒆𝒔𝒔𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔 )

Loving You

heyy, it's clara, and well i wrote this a while back ( i'm not saying when ). while writing this one, i was really in my feelings and just so heartbroken. it's a messy song, but a vulnerable one, where i wasn't afraid to speak my mind out. 

i always get friendzoned or whatever, but ig that comes with being demiromantic, which isn't a choice :/

don't get me wrong tho, demi pride all the way, but it really hurts. at least i get songs out of all this pain and sob over bruno mar's 'grenade' on loop ( yes, i actually do that ). i love that song, i feel so close to it 🥺💔

but this is about my song 'loving you' though. i think i've already said enough . . .  wow, this one really slaps so hard. damn, i was really heartbroken that day. 

CHORUS:

loving you was a mystery

everytime i held in my breath deep

i couldn't face it, and i couldn't face you

no, not after all we've been through

1ST VERSE:

this may be forward, but i love you

and i've been loving you since the first month

i've never fallen for anyone so far into the hole

everytime i face up, i can't see much

except you, just like in my dreams

without knowing, it's my whole heart you stole

i'd like it back sometime

 except maybe i don't

maybe i enjoy living in the heartbreak and pain

of the fact that i'm nothing more than just a friend to you

and that's all i'll ever be

i don't think i'll ever fess up

and confess my true feelings

and if i do, i know something is bound to go wrong

afterall, it's you ( just you )

CHORUS:

loving you was a mystery

everytime i held in my breath deep

i couldn't face it, and i couldn't face you

no, not after all we've been through

2ND VERSE

i wonder if you've noticed yet

of how much time i dedicate and spend

just to be with you

since its the closest thing to what we'll never have

oh, what a shame

is it the end?

has time finally sewn to mend?

is today the day you'll comprehend

of how desperately in love i am with you

i hate it, but you know what they say

you can't help who you fall for, you just do

and it's true

it just occurred without a clue

if i could choose, i'd rather love someone else

someone who's loving didn't burn like hell

it's a living fire everytime you're near

the match is set and struck

dug deep to the ground

i could feel the sweat prespire

and my heart pound

i try to run, but it's you

i could never

CHORUS:

loving you was a mystery

everytime i held in my breath deep

i couldn't face it, and i couldn't face you

no, not after all we've been through

BRIDGE:

i know we'll never be lovers

and so the tears restrain from ache

my heavy heart torn and draped

i don't think i'll ever recover

what if there's no other?

in all sheer honesty

it's me and my stupid hope that's to blame

the chance of us was as worthy as a hoax stain

the flame was washed out by the rain

and the brink was too far out layed

no, i can't conceal

i'll never tell you how i feel

but that won't stop me from loving you either

no, i never will

OUTRO:

no, i never will

it's you, always you

i'll never stop loving you (x3)