I straightened my back and gave myself a once over in the mirror. My long hair fell down my back in twists, my make up wasn't ruined by near tears and I looked happy enough to fake it through this.
So, that's what I did, I faked it throughout the entire wedding.
Like a good friend was, I walked down the aisle beside the best man. I stood at my designated spot and waited for the bride along with everyone else. I broke a bit more when she appeared, her eyes solely on her groom. I didn't miss the way Julian stared at her, the same way I did. Like she was everything. And she was to both of us.
I clenched my hands around the bouquet in my hands as they exchanged vows. My mind filled with memories of us growing up. I kept quiet when they asked if anyone had a reason they shouldn't be joined. I smiled like everyone else when they slipped on the rings and sealed it with a kiss.
I gave my speech with the brightest smile and did my duty by wishing them a long and happy life. And believe me when I say I meant each and every word. Because she deserved a long and happy life even if I wasn't giving it to her. I supposed that is what love is, sacrifice.
Love was bullshit.
Then, with one last lingering glance at the smitten couple, I left.
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"Jace!"
My head peeked around the fire truck where I was. "Captain?"
"You're in charge of today's tour." The greying haired man informed me before leaving again.
I sighed and shut the bumper storage, dusting my hands on my pants. Today we had a class of third graders and I wasn't looking forward to it. I grumbled to myself when I heard the distinct tell of kids approaching. Their blissful chattering and stomping shoes came to where I was. I loved the small humans, but it had been a long week and I was only looking forward to going home.
Thirty minutes later, I said goodbye to the kids and waited for the last few minutes of my shift to end. When it did come, I wasted no time in making my way out. Reaching up to my bun, I allowed my twists to fall down my back. I shrugged on my leather jacket and held my helmet under my arm.
Paul Lahey spotted me and a wide grin formed across his childlike face on my way out of the station. "We on for tomorrow, Jace?"
I gave a salute and a smirk. "We sure are."
"Get some rest, buddy." He gave me a half hug and went on his way.
My sleek black Yamaha R15 stood in the parking lot. It was a gift from my parents on my birthday last year. The bike was a well appreciated gift and I took care of it like it was my baby. Because it was.
I straddled the bike and placed my helmet on before speeding off. I got to my new apartment in no time, parked my bike and got off. I always carried my helmet with me instead of leaving it hanging off the bike, so I headed inside. I lived on the third floor of the five storey building and jogged up the stairs, seeing as they hadn't fixed the elevators.
Entering my place with small pants leaving me, I put down my helmet, keys, phone and wallet on the console table to my left. I hurriedly stripped out of my clothes until I wore only my boxer brief and sports bra. Too tired to do much else, I fell to my comfy sofa and was out in no time.
I woke up lazy despite my long ass nap. I stood in the shower with my toothbrush in my mouth. I brushed while leaning against the tiled wall eyeing the water fall. I breathed in deeply, the ache making an appearance again.
Ten months and I still can't get over it.
I stood at the kitchen island and drank my protein shake, eyes scanning my empty place. I missed home but I knew I didn't want to go back there. Already dressed in my gym shorts, sports bra and sweatshirt, I pulled on my trainers. I left my apartment with my wallet and keys in my pocket. The sun was high in the sky and I probably shouldn't run when it was this hot, but running always helped me cast the thoughts away.
I jogged in the direction I knew the gym was and pushed everything else away. There was a gym at work, but this was a small town and the equipments were limited. I needed somewhere to go when I was off. I ran the three miles there, slowing down as I neared. My mind was still trying to stay absent when I bumped into someone.
Instinctively, I reached forward and grabbed the smaller body from falling. "I am so sorry. I wasn't looking where I was going. Are you okay? I'm so sorry."
The woman's eyes rapidly blinked as they trailed up to mine, momentarily widening. Our eyes stayed locked for a few seconds and I noted her brown eyes held some green around the irises. No doubt, she was a beautiful woman and I mentally patted myself on the shoulder for noticing someone that wasn't Belle. Though this woman seemed tired, but still effortlessly beautiful.
"Are you okay?" I asked again as I let my hands fall from her waist. So soft.
I am so gay.
She didn't answer right away, nodding at first as she fixed her purse before adding, "I'm fine. Excuse me." She then walked past me.
"Sorry!" I yelled at her retreating figure, feeling guilty for almost knocking her over.
She only sent me a thumbs up without slowing down or turning.
I sighed and headed into the gym.
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A Silent Hope
RomanceAfter being left on the doorsteps of an orphanage at age four, Thalia Davis spends most of her life there. The few foster homes she had, never lasted more than a few months at best. Now an adult and trying to leave the past behind, Thalia's world is...
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