CHAPTER 10 : what if he doesn't like me back?

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Saga-

I've been overthinking everything, especially about this boy. I can't think of anything else but him.

He's really been on my mind, and I know I like him because the first time I saw him at the gas station, I fell in love with his looks. Which are the first things I notice in a guy.

Other people may find other things attractive, but I find looks to be very appealing.

Andrea told me about 4 months ago that the first thing she notices in a guy is their kindness or the way they dress.

I don't, because, as I previously stated, I find looks appealing.

I fell in love with my ex-boyfriend because of his appearance.

I didn't fall in love with him because of his pleasant demeanor.

He was kind and sweet, but I didn't notice that while dating him.

I'm just afraid to tell him because what if he doesn't respond positively?

What if he responds, "No, what the fuck?" "You're so unattractive."

I despise overthinking everything; it makes me cry so much.

Even after that reassurance, I feel stupid because I overthought so much; I just wish I could switch my brain out with the person I overthink about so I could actually know how they feel and think about me.

So I wouldn't overthink things as much.

But I know that's not going to happen, so I'll just have to live with it or control it because I despise it right now.

I despise so much.

It sometimes makes me want to shoot my brain.

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