she hadn't seen or heard from shownu since that day , nor had she slept , eaten a proper meal or even sat down . yesterday the label called asking did she have anything she'd written because she'd have a live section on the radio in 3 days & that's when she stumbled to work going off nothing more than the weed & liquor that was stimulating her torn mind .
just before she started to sing her producer & a few other people talked lowly as they greeted shownu who'd just walked in . he smiled sweetly at y/n who'd held her dead/tired expression as she sang into the mic looking him directly in his eyes as if the glass wasn't separating the 2 of them . her heart hurt more seeing him & wanting nothing more than to just be in his arms .
his expression turned into a focused one as he listened to her sing a song he'd never heard before his attention also being brought to the fact that there was a new drummer in the plan , playing where he should have been .
shownu tilted his head as he watched y/n sing more powerfully than she'd ever have in all of her career . his stomach started to twist as he got a weird feeling .. "are these lyrics about me? .. they can't be" he thought as she stared at him replaying the images of him and that other woman in her mind .
the way he treated the other woman reminded her of how he treated her .. they were so happy together .. he was so understanding and loving .. he was so trustworthy .. at least that's what she thought .
shownu started to feel beads of sweat trickle down his face . he was sure the words "guilty" were literally painted on his face in bold red writing for everyone to see .
y/n took a drag from her blunt & then a sip from the gin she had in her glass staring at her reflection that had shown a woman she'd almost didn't recognize as herself .
shownu felt his eyes start to sting as she belted out the lyrics holding the mic as if it'd run away . she didn't care for his tears , as she saw it , he was only crying and 'hurt' because he'd gotten caught .
when she'd finished he was standing on the other side of the glass with an apologetic look on his face . he'd stepped forward to come into the booth with her but stopped when she talked . "let's go again" she said in a dull tone putting the blunt up to her lips again .
shownu just hung his head low silently casting shame upon himself for being so stupid . she couldn't watch as he walked out of the studio knowing it'll hurt a lot more to see him go . a single tear slipped down her face becoming the last one she'd cried for a while .
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yall i'm so angry cause my drafts got deleted & there was this chapter i was really trying to release .. anyways i'm like come down from a high rn so idk if this is good or not cause i can't really focus so i'm sorry if it's bad , i'm just writing stuff 😭
