BROKEN

twenty four

The drugs had begun to take effect, I staggered into my bedroom and lay on the bed, I hadn't felt this light In a long time.
I clutched the bottle with all my might
I'm never letting it go.

I didn't know when I slept but when I woke up the sun was shining bright in the sky. I looked at the time and realised it was midday. I shot out of my bed in surprise, I slept for nineteen hours, I laughed like a crazy person at the power of the anti depressant. If someone saw was home they'd think i was dead.
I untangled my self from the bed and stripped down from my clothes from yesterday. I washed up and walked downstairs to eat.
I sat on the sofa with oreos and a milkshake and binged 24 hours.

My phone ringing uncontrollable, got me to stand up from my very comfortable position.
I didn't look at the caller Id before barking an angry what at whoever disturbed my peace.
"Well hello to you too whitehead "
"Ughh keiran, what do you want "
"Well lulu, I wanted to tell you I'll be there in half an hour" I scrunched my eyebrows in confusion before it dawned on me that we had a party to go too
"Okay keiran" I hastily ended the call and ran up stairs, I took a shower before picking out what I wanted to wear.

I threw my hair In a messy ponytail, wore my stylish pair of glasses and put on my shoes and grabbed my mini backpack

I locked up just intime to see, keiran parking. I opened the door and sat on the plush leather seat and took a good look at him

"You know white head we kinda match" I just rolled my eyes at him
"Let's go keiran, I'd like to be back by 11"
He looked at me like I was crazy before nodding
He drove like a maniac, thank God for the seatbelts, I would have died. We parked infront of Aurelia house that's if it fit into the house category
This place was a mansion.
You could here the buzz and thumping of music from here.

I took a deep breath and stepped out the car with keiran
My hands were clammy and sweaty, I gave my self a mini pep talk when keiram opened the door.
I felt overwhelmed in an instant, I felt although the roof would fall off and crushed us all.
Keiran led us to the bar, where Aurelia and her crew were.
I saw Ivan sitting on the counter talking to Analise infront of him

I made contact with his eyes, but couldn't hold it for long.
"Lotus"
"Hi everyone " I greeted
Mal waved at me, while they all ignored me, I gave him a small smile, keiran gave me a solo cup filled with beer
"I don't think little Ms good shoes lotus drinks keiran "
The corners of my lips tilted up at Analise's statement
If only she knew what I had done
"I took a sip of the beer" I closed my eyes and savored its taste it had been long since I drank beer. I opened my eyes and saw keiran grinning
He knew about my rendezvous.

They engaged in a conversation with me and keiran mostly keiran. I just stood there awkwardly nursing my cup of beer.
I saw analise pull Ivan to the dance floor, I watched as they danced and my heart tugged
I couldn't take it anymore when they started kissing so I left the room,
I saw the backdoor and followed the trail into the woods, I clutched the beer, taking occasional sips while I walked.

The trail led to a beautiful pond, I took my shoes off and put my feet in the water, my mind roamed to Ivan and Analise. Not wanting to think about it, I opened my bag and brought out my anti depressant.
I popped two in my mouth and washed it down with beer. I closed my eyes once the feeling of lightness overwhelmed Me

I jolted up when I heard a sound, I looked around and strained my ears to listen for anything.
I turned my back and faced the stream, someone or something pushed me into the water, I hit my head on a rock before passing out in the water I caught a glimpse of black obsidian eyes staring down at me before I drowned.