ANIDITA : HIS TORCH OF REVOLUTION (ON HOLD)

CHAPTER 2 : Part 2

Bondita's POV :

It kept on ringing in my ears. I tried to stop it by closing my ears but it only seemed to strengthen.

"Tode dijiye aapka aur Bondita ji ke bich me baal vivah se bana hua ea bandhan..aaj hi iss acchekariyo ki shuruwat aap aapni sadhi ko tode kar kijiye Anirudh babu"

I closed my eyes tightly. No! what they said will not happen. Uff! It seemed impossible for me to bear this pain anymore!! I rushed towards the Durga temple, covering my mouth in a desperate attempt to stop my sobs. Now only Dugga Maa can help me in this horrible situation. I lit a lamp in front of Dugga maa and I stood with folded hands. I tried so hard not to remember anything. But their words kept on repeating itself inside my head.

"Baal vivah ke birudh kaanun baan geya hai"
"tode dijiye aapka aur Bondita ji ke bich baal vivah se bana hua ea bandhan"

Even with these, many old words came to my mind.

"Bhul geye hai aap ki main kin haalaton me sadhi ki thi Bondita se!!"

"Kisiki zindegi laagi thi daao par aur isiliye sadhi karni padhi mujhe"

"Main ne tumhari maang me sindoor bhara hai..par isliye nhi ki mera mann chata tha..baalki isliye kyunki ek krupatha se tumhari zindegi bachane ka aur koi rasta nhi bacha tha mere pass"

"Kaanun banane wali arzi main wapas nhi le saakta..logon ka bachpan kharab kar rahi hai ea pratha aur usse main khariz karwa kar rahunga"

"Bhale hi humara rishta alag hai lekin tumhare sath itna samay bitane ke baad tumhare prati lagav badha hi hai..ek shisya wala lagav, ek dost wala lagav"

After remembering all these I cried my heart out. Why Dugga maa? Why was it me? Why is it always me? What have I done to you that you have given me such a life? I've gone through a lot in my lifetime but I never doubted you or your plans for me. But what is it? Why do you always do that to me? Why is happiness in my life not lasting more than a few moments? Why do you always put me and Pati babu in such a difficult situation? I've never complained but have only asked your blessings and strength to overcome and fight through them. But this? Didn't you know your Bondita wouldn't be able to take it? You know naa Dugga maa that I have been already separated from my Pati babu, from my Biristra babu twice before but I will not be able to bear that pain again. I'm fed up now. Then Dugga maa, why are you taking such a tough test of mine?
I broke down in more tears. I ran to Dugga maa's feet, grabbed her feet, closed my eyes and started crying, letting the intolerable pain washing over me like a wildfire. Then Batuk and Som Dada came.

"Boudi?" Batuk called me.

I wiped my eyes and looked at them. They are standing with a rope in their hands. I walked over to them.

"Aap roiye maat Boudi..ea rassi dekh rahe ho na aap!? Iss rassi se bandh dunga aapko aur dada ko..fir dekhta hu kaise koi alag karega aapko unse" Batuk said.

"Koi zarurat nhi hai Batuk uski..Dada aur Boudi ka rishta koi nhi tode saakta..ek atut rishta hai unn dono ka ...chaha kar bhi koi Meri dada aur boudi ko alag nhi kar saakta" Somu Dada looked at me and said. A smile of pride and certainty never left his face. "aur agar aisa koi kahega bhi to hum ladhenge unse..ladhega na tu Batuk??" Somu dada looked at Batuk and asked him.

"Ea bhi koi puchne ki baat hai kya Dada!! Chote zaminder aise hi kehete hai mujhe!! aap chinta maat karo Boudi hum aapke sath hai..Durga ma bhi" Batuk replied. They reassured me. They wanted to comfort me. I am very lucky to have two such brothers in my life. I smiled with tears in my eyes.