Life After Marriage Book 3

Special Chapter: Still Hurts

I debated whether to go out there or let him have his moment. I decided it was too cold for him to be out there in the rain uncovered. And got up, grabbed my robe, pregnant and all to see about him.

"Baby come inside." I softly put my hand on his drenched shoulder.

He just continued to breakdown. Most women are hard on their men about showing emotion but I have always allowed Aug to be comfortable with me.

Men shouldn't have to live up to some fake ass standard of manhood. They hurt just like anyone else and to call them soft or be angry because they show a sign of weakness shows what type of woman you are to not allow a man to express a genuine human emotion.

(Shade to the folks talking about Aug when he posted that Instagram video where he was crying.)

Granted my bae cries more than most,
I never judge him. And that's why we have such an open and honest relationship. He can be him and I can be me. Sorry for the rant just an irritation I have.

My man's tears doesn't make him less of a man. Just like another man like let's say Travis's hiding of tears doesn't make him any less. Their both men. Even if they express themselves differently.

"Aug." I knelt down to his level and kissed his cheek.

He let go of the bars and wiped his eyes.

"I don't want you getting sick baby." He told me. "You got the baby inside you."

I stood up. "Well I'm not coming in without you so come on." I held out my hand for him to take.

He did and I led him to the bedroom. I cut on the light and got him a towel out the drawer and handed it to him to dry off. He took off all his clothes and dried off and I handed him a t-shirt and some basketball shorts.

I collected his wet clothes and put them in the hamper. He put on his clothes and sat on the edge of the bed with his arms rested on his knees and his head in his hands.

"Come lay next to me baby." I got in the bed and patted the empty space next to me.

He listened and got on his side of the bed far away from me. I scooted next to him and laid my head on his pillow super close to him. I repeatedly kissed his soft cheek.

"Sometimes this shit don't seem worth it Amb." He started to cry again.

"What baby?" I wiped his eyes with my fingers.

"I got everything I want. The house. The money. The family. The career. But what that mean when I ain't got my brother? Sometimes I want to give it all back baby. Just to be with Mel. He ain't seen none of this. Me graduate. My wedding. Sata and Auggie." He started back up.

"Sssshhhhh." I kissed his forehead and softly grabbed the sides of his face looking in his eyes. "Baby, Mel sees all of this I promise you. We can't see him, but he sees us. That's how Angels work baby." I smiled.

"And he's so proud of you. And he's thankful for you too. For what you did for Cha and the girls when they were hurting and look at them now. Chay about to go off to college. Kay bout to go to high school. Noonie as grown as she ever wants to be."

We laughed.

"You don't have to cry from him Aug. Mel is okay. I promise you. He resting in a place we all trying to get to. With somebody that can take better care of him than we can. He probably up there with daddy. And they looking at us crazy cause we even having this conversation." I started to tear through my smile.

"It's not easy I know. But the best thing we can do is thank God for the time we had them, and just ask God to keep them in good hands until we see them again."