Don't Call me That -SEQUEL TO SCMT

Updated T&C

So yes, the actions are not ok. I don't want anyone reading this and thinking that it is in any way ok. I also don't want anyone reading this and thinking that by repeating any of the actions in it they will fix their problems. This is fiction.

This arc also involves self harm, which is not something I am in any way advocating for. I have struggled with it for over a decade on and off, as of writing this note. It does not 'even out' the bad actions of a character, it does not solve the relationship problems, etc.

I am attempting to write a redemption arc which does not romanticize mental health issues. If you've been on wattpad for any length of time, you know that it is not easy to portray these issues without demonizing or romanticizing them. I might make mistakes.

That is why I am leaving this note beforehand. To be clear that these actions are not ok, sh and/or suicide are not things/subjects to be taken lightly, nor do they in any way solve problems.

If you have lashed out as a result of mental illness, it does not make you a bad person, but it also is not an ok way to treat others. Forgive yourself, but don't allow yourself to continue acting in that way.

Reach out for help if you need it, and support your friends how you can, but don't let people treat you badly either. You are not responsible for anyone else's happiness, and not required to keep people in your life if they are/have been bad for you. If they threaten to hurt themselves if you leave, that is more reason to leave, as they are manipulative and not caring for your feelings or health at all. Take care of you first.

Part 3, on eating disorders, why I write them, and the way I portray them:

This is a serious topic, and one which is hard for me to talk about, but this needs to be said.

I never mean to romanticize eds, they are terrible. If you feel you are edging on one, whether it be body insecurity, dysphoria, being overweight, etc, know that it is not in any way worth it and will not fix shit. Even if it briefly might feel like it, that honeymoon phase does not last. Long term, you will feel just as bad or worse, and also have an ed. Don't let yourself fall down this rabbit hole.

Quick sidenote for those of you who are overweight: Losing weight is ok. Do research on healthy ways. No more than 2lbs a week, do not do so if you are underweight or close to it. Talk to a doctor if possible.

Note to those currently struggling: reach out if you can, and try to take care of yourself. Recovery is possible, and necessary. It is never too early or too late to get help. This is killing you. If you aren't yet ready for recovery, I understand, as I am there, and while that isn't good, it doesn't make you worse of a person. However, that does not mean you should let yourself get worse. Try to take the best care of yourself you can, even if you are still undereating, try to give your body what it needs to sustain itself, or as much as you can manage. If you're struggling with purging, try to limit it as much as you can, don't brush your teeth within 30 minutes to an hour, and drink lots of water. Getting 'all of it' or maintaining weight is not worth your heart giving out. And if you're struggling with binge eating, arfid, ednos, etc, know that I see you too, even if that's not what I am writing in this book. You are valid, and still deserve help, even if your ed is less known and sometimes more stigmatized

You will never feel sick enough. You will never feel small enough. There is no sense to give in to your worst thoughts and try to get there, since you will not.

Now, to go into the part where I actually talk about how I write it and why.

The reason that this is such a prevalent theme in my writing is that I use writing as a coping mechanism and as a way to vent. I include things that I struggle with, to get it out somewhere and to feel less alone, and sometimes it helps me to act on them less.