Love Me Worse

The Proof Is In The Nigga

Chapter 16 

One phone call changed everything for me I was so crushed my spirit my heart just all crushed right now

I got to Detroit in about 4 hours I got to the hospital and my sister and Aunt was sitting in the waiting room and my aunt was devastated never seen her this way ever

I walked over and said "he is okay?"

"Hes in surgery "My auntie said

"Its all my fault I put him out the house I let this happen"She cried out

"He's going to be okay He has to be okay"I said

Soon as I said that two doctors comes over to us and they had this sad look on their face

My auntie screamed "Nooooo Noooo Noooooo"She said as she broke down to the floor

"We did everything we could but his injuries were just to crucial we are so sorry for your lost"The doctor said

My heart froze or atleast it felt like it did I couldn't believe what I was hearing

My Auntie is on knees begging god please as my eyes is filling with tears

Than another nurse comes out and whisper in the doctor ear

And he gets this confused look on his face

And he ask us "Are you the family of Gerald Thompkins"

"Who!"Ahjanay me and my Auntie all said at the same time

"No we are the family Antonio Hardy"I said

"I apologize Ill go check and see if there is any update"The nurse said

Ahjanay looked at me and said "what kind of shit was that"

The nurse came back and said that he was still in surgery

we waited hours and its just feels like Im waiting on a slow painful death

It felt like a bad dream and the only thing Im thinking about is how it doesn't matter if he lied to me or not at the end of the day he is the only father Ive ever known

And I don't know what Ill do if he doesn't make it

I know Ill lose my mind I'll go crazy

Life is short we never believe that shit untill shit like this happens

I've been ignoring him for weeks because I wasn't ready to accept the fact that he is father

Well right here right now I accept him as my father

Please god let him be okay because my heart can't take it without him anymore

Ahjanay left to go pick my niece up from daycare

And its just me and my Auntie holding hands both so afraid of what are lives could be

"I don't care what happened 22 years ago I love that man that man is my everything if he dies...."Than she looked at me as her eyes watering and said "If he dies"

I could even keep looking at my auntie without crying

She held my hand tightly and said "Bella how do I tell my child that she will never see her father again how do I do that"

She wiped her eyes and stood up "I can't be like this not right now he's in there fighting right now that means I gotta fight too"

"Im going to go fix myself up"She said

"Okay I'll be right here"I said

She went off to the bathroom and my mother called

I answered "Hello"