My Sex Obsession

Chapter 25.Part 2

~Julia~

I don't know what's happening right now..

It's like I'm floating but I'm not going anywhere.

Am I dead or just sleep?

If I am dead...would I be in heaven or hell?

Honestly, I'd prefer to be dead right now.

What do I have to live for anyways?

I give a total of 0 fucks about Damion and my best friend is mentally insane.

There's a bright light and a door appears.

Is this my time?

I start walking towards it when it suddenly shuts.

Bruh.

It's then that I hear someone calling me.

"Julia?"

"God?" I whisper.

A chuckle. "No it's not God."

Well if it's not him it's...

"Satan? Look, I'm sorry but I can't go to hell. I've done by the bible my entire life..except for premarital sex BUT I-"

"Julia open your eyes."

I stop talking and realize I'm not floating anymore but I'm still in the hospital.

I look around for the voice that was talking and see Jamal.

"Jamal, what are you doing here?" I croak.

He helps me drink some water through a straw and then sighs.

"It's a long story." He smiles at me and grabs my hand. "But I'm here for you."

I open my mouth to speak when I remember something.

"Sasha. Where is she?"

Jamal's smile falls and he looks away from me.

"She um..she-" He takes a deep breath. "She killed herself last night."

"She what?" I hiss. That bitch Corrie. "Why did she do that?"

He shrugs. "The only thing on her suicide note was 'Corrie won't hurt anyone anymore.' Who is Corrie?"

I stare at him quietly.

I would tell him but honestly it's better if no one else knows.

"I have no idea."

"Well, Sasha's mom was up here screaming at all the doctors saying it was their fault. Then she tried cutting Damion cause she thought that's the reason Sasha tried killing herself. It's been pretty hectic. You out for about 7 hours. I have a daughter. The doctors weren't sure if you would make it."

"Wow. That's cra-wait, you what!?" My eyes widen.

"I have a four year old daughter named Audrey." He says like he's trying to convince himself. "Her mother knew the whole time." He shakes his head.

"Damn. I can't imagine how you're feeling." I reach out and rub his shoulder.

He snorts. "But the worst part is, guess who Audrey thinks her dad is?"

"Who?" My eyebrows come together.

He opens his mouth but then closes it.

"Some nigga from a bar or sum." He looks away but I can tell there's something else.

I ignore it. "Well who is Audrey's mom?"

"Trina." He mumbles.

I stare at him wide-eyed.

"Trina Jones?" He nods. "Thottie Trina?" He nods again.

"Yes, damn." He laughs lightly."I fucked her once and I know I wrapped up but..." She shrugs. "Shit happens. I found out cause Audrey needed a blood transfusion and since she's biologically mine, I gave her some."

He shows me his bandage.

"Well what are you gonna do?" I ask, sitting up in the bed.

"I'm gonna raise her. She is mine after all. I've missed four years of her life and no one can keep me from missing more of her life." He smiles to himself.

"Wow. I think you'll be a great father." I smile at him and he leans over to kiss my forehead. "What was that for?"

"For being you." He smiles harder.

Uh oh.

"Julia, where are we?"

Damn, I knew that was coming.

"We're in the hospit-"

"I'm serious. You know how I feel about you. So how do you feel about me?"

I look away from his intense gaze.

"I can't do this right now, Jamal. My best friend is dead, my ex-boyfriend is...somewhere. And it seems like eveything has to happen to me. Why me?Why!?"

He slides in the bed with me and pulls me into his arms as I sob loudly.

"Shh. It's alright. Let it out, J."

Someone knocks on the door and I sigh loudly.

Now what?

My mom walks in and I break down all over again.

"My baby!" She sprints to me and hugs me tight. "Baby, are you okay?"

"Nope."

She looks down at me. "What's wrong? What did that dickhead Damion do now?"

"Mom," I laugh."You're on my arm."

She looks down at my cast as if just seeing it.

"Oh, my bad." She laughs and looks at Jamal, beside me.

"Jamal?"

"Yes ma'am." He says nervously.

"Boy get over here and hug me."

He leaves my side and walks around the bed to hug her.

"I was just checking on you but I see you're busy." She winks and squeezes my hand. "I'll go see about getting you checked out."

She smiles at us both.

"I've always liked Jamal. He's-"

"Bye mama."

"Aw hush. Bye y'all." She closes the door behind her.

We both laugh and Jamal suddenly leans down to kiss me.

I kiss back slowly then pull away blushing.

"Jamal-"

"It's okay, I understand." He smirks. "Just know, I will get you one day."

I laugh. "Sure."

Our laughter stops when his phone rings.

He answers it and sighs.

"Yeah, okay. I'm on my way."

He runs his hands down his face.

"What is it?"

He looks down at me.

"It's time to meet my daughter."