Still, a cannon fodder

Chapter 1

Chapter 1: Am I a Cannon Fodder?

Seven Deadly Sins.

Pride, Wrath, Greed, Gluttony, Lust, Envy, and Sloth.

I still remember what he said that if I have done anything of those sins, then I am unforgivable. I would go to hell, that's what that religious man have told me when I was young.

Those things, I have done all of them.

I have envied someone so excessively that I have managed to do those other things. I have ruined a lot of things. I am a very sinful person. To hell it is, but I don't even care about it anymore.

Heaven? Hell? What's that? Does God even exist in this broken and ugly world?

If there was a God, he wouldn't let this Zombie Apocalypse happen and exist. If there was a God, he wouldn't let my life become ruined. Destroyed by that fucking son of a bitch.

Guess, I am also a son of a bitch.

That damn guy who fucking ruined my life is my brother. My twin brother nearly looks the same as me. If it was a percentage we would look 80% similar when it comes to looks. And our personalities would be 100% different from each other.

He was the sun and I am the moon. It was always like that. From early childhood, he was the stupid brother. While I am the smart and perfect child that every parent would dream to have.

I am obedient, while he was a rowdy and disobedient child who likes to break the school rules. I was study-oriented while he was someone who doesn't take studying seriously at all. He would always get into a fight which causes a lot of stress and exasperation from our guardian.

But if there was a positive thing about him, just like I said earlier, he was a Sun. Jonas, my twin is someone who has a warm personality. He was easygoing and like to chatter a lot. An extraverted social butterfly who clings to flowers and causes those fauna to be endeared on that insect.

People who tended to dislike him first because he was a chatterbox and a noisy person tended to eventually warm up to him. He has a lot of negative characteristics, but they say it makes him more a lot more human and 'genuine'.

Unlike someone like me. A pretentious fake who sucks up to teachers during the primary school days, the secondary year, and even until towards the professors of the University.

A teacher's bitch. That's what his friends called me when Jonas was feeling down because our guardian was berating him for his poor grades during high school and compared my grades to him.

" You shouldn't listen to that helicopter asshole! What is good about that pretentious teacher's bitch? "

" Being focused in extracurricular activities isn't bad at all. Don't mind your guardian comparing you to that academy-oriented teacher's bitch. "

" Who knows what would happen in the future? That teacher's bitch wouldn't always be favored. So cheer up Jonas! "

Teacher's Bitch– That insult towards me from his friends in High School eventually has gotten stuck to me until my university days. Jonas eventually used that insult when he was annoyed or angry at me when his rebellious phase got worse in college.

During our college days, he seeks to become independent from our adopted father. He ran away from home, as our father has said 'he was an ungrateful child.'

He said with a voice full of scorn. Yet, his voice wavered in the end. His fist trembled and he look so frail and lonely. The painful words left by Jonas have affected him greatly even though he was trying to look strong and dignified in front of me.