My Karma Stipulation

Chapter 2 - Decision Will Still Remain

I grabbed myself a drink as I gazed the random man in front of me. Okay, not bad. He's kind of good looking, but the man on the bar who helped me is nothing to compared with him. He's more good looking and why the hell am I comparing them? Umiling ako at ininom ang hawak kong wine glass.

"Of course, I will. I know your daughter for a long time, Mr. and Mrs. Tanquile. Well, I couldn't do anything actually but to admire her from a far just like the moon, who people loves to admire it despite of it's beauty... since she's too pretty hard to reach." That's what the man formally said without hesitation on his voice. Gosh, he's so corny! Sigurado akong madaldal siya parang si Rianne!

Turn-off sa akin ang mga lalaking madadaldal, actually. Gusto ko sa lalaking tahimik. 'Yung mas malamig pa sa yelo at walang pakialam sa buhay. Pakiramdam ko kasi parang challenging talaga 'yung mga ganoong klaseng lalaki para sa akin.

"What an honor, Mr. Isles. Thank you for that, but I'm sorry to say this. Well, first of all... I'm not interested to this kind of stuffs like marriage or whatever. I hope you understand that I don't want to get married yet. Secondly, marriage is not my thing and last, I decide who I will love in the future," I said right after drinking the glass of wine. Dad suddenly looked at me like he's starting to get mad or something. I only rolled my eyes on his reaction.

I was about to go because I was thinking it's just a waste of my time coming to my parents' table, but someone fetched my arms.

"Hey, please. I'm not forcing you so don't do this, okay? I'm willing to wait and if you're ready, then we can finally--"

"Actually from the beginning, I am so turn-off by your actions, Mr. Isles. I can't marry you and I hope you're going to break it as well like I did just now. I was actually expecting that you won't like this situation, but why is that? What's up with you people? Why the fuck all of you are doing this?! Oo, pangarap ko rin namang ikasal, pero hindi force marriage at kapag handa na ako! Do you get what I mean, Mr. Isles? I also hate modeling if my parents told you that thing! All of their decisions is--"

"What do you think you're doing!" It was not a question. Dad definitely shouted. He smashed his two hands on the table, revealing that he's actual mad now.

"What do you think, dad? I'm just doing the right thing for pete's sake! I'm correcting it by making my party ruin because of what you did and mom, too. You and mom are so hella' obssess on money! Yes, we may be rich, dad. Pero hindi pa ba iyon sapat?! Mom and dad, please! Please! Wake up your souls, please! You both are just doing this because of your fucking--"

"People are staring, Risha! You crazy brat! Don't try to ruin your own birthday party!" Mom slapped me across my face. Because of what my mom did, the people's attention are all on us now. This is all their fault! Not mine's!

"My whole life as your mother! Our whole life as your parents, Risha! Hindi kami nagkulang sa'yo! Pinakain ka namin, pinalaki ng maayos, pinag-aral at binigyan ng magandang buhay! Halos binigay-bigay namin lahat ng mga pangangailangan mo! Ano pa ba ang gusto mo, anak?!" Isa lang ang gusto kong mangyari! Kung hindi man isa, dalawa lang! Ang hindi matuloy ang kasal at ang pagiging flight attendant ko balang araw! Hindi para maging model sa France! Flight attendant, mom!

Ang maging flight attendant kasama si Zara. Ang kaso nga lang ay wala na si Zara sa aking tabi! Wala na! Sira na ang lahat dahil nasa Vigan na siya! Hindi na niya ako sasamahan sa pangarap ko! Hinding-hindi na...

"Don't you dare say that because it creates me an unhappiness, mom! My whole life, mom. Desiring my own free will and my own happiness are all nothing... but a karma. You are making your own daughter suffer and it's all because of the mistakes you have done together with dad! Sa akin bumabalik lahat ng mga iyon nang dahil sa inyo! Sa anak niyo bumabalik lahat ng mga iyon... na kailanman ay hindi niyo man lang nagawang suportahan kahit isang beses..." I sobbed as I spoked my last line. Tears are falling into my eyes now and I think my makeup is all ruined, too.