Tsss....
Love really hurts isn't it?
I love her
I really do
I lost her once
And now I did something that will make me lose her again
Lose her again in my arms
I am afraid to lose her
God knows how afraid I am
God knows that I don't want to
But I made a mistake
I never trusted her
I never trusted them
Is letting her go a right decision?
Because right now,I don't know what to do anymore
I don't know how to live in this world anymore
But I know I can't give up...
Because many depends on me
So much depends on me
Pinunasan ko nalang ang pisngi ko at tumayo
"Pupunta muna ako sa bayan.I deserve to be miserable because of guilt"-Sabi ko sabay labas na ng kwarto ko
Pagkarating ko sa bayan ay halos mapaluhod ako dahil sa panghihina ng tuhod ko
I did this?
Bakit ba hindi ko inisip ang hininging kapalit ng ginawa ko?
How did I become someone so foolish?
Napahawak naman agad ako sa tagiliran ko ng biglang sumakit ang sugat ko
Sh*t!
F*ck this!
Bakit ba dumagdag pa tong buwesit na sugat na to sa napakadaming sakit na nararamdaman ko?
This f*cking wound is wasting my blood damn it!
F*ck this wound!
"Prime"-rinig Kong tawag nang kung sino mula sa likuran ko
Paglingon ko ay nakita ko si Arrow
So nandito din pala siya sa bayan
"Okay ka lang?"-Tanong niya nung mapansin niyang hawak-hawak ko ang tagiliran ko
Binitawan ko naman agad ang tagiliran ko saka ako sumagot
"I'm fine"-Sabi ko
"Why did you do this?Why did you burn the town?"-Tanong niya
"I still can't answer you.I'm not in the right position to give my reason,Wala na eh,nagawa ko na"-Sagot ko sabay talikod ko sa kanya
"Prime,tell me,Why did you do it?"-Tanong niya ulit
"I told you I can't answer you"
"Then why did you break up with Ella?"-Tanong niya na ikinalingon ko ulit sa kanya
Alam na pala nilang naghiwalay na kami
Malungkot naman akong ngumiti sa kanya bago sumagot
"Because it's not right.She don't deserve someone like me"
Pagkatapos kong sabihin Yun ay naglakad na agad ako papunta sa basketball court
I deserve to be tormented more because of what I did
I did this
I f*cking did this
Pagkarating ko sa basketball court ay napasandal agad ako sa pader dahil sa pagkahilo
So I lost so much blood huh?
But it doesn't matter though
I don't f*cking care
I don't f*cking care if I'll die this way
I deserve it anyway
Napatingin naman agad ako sa paligid at napahinto agad ang mata ko sa isang gilid
It's Ella
But.....
With someone else
Ella is crying in someone else's shoulder
Napangiti nalang ulit ako ng malungkot dahil sa nakikita ko
Dahil yun nalang ang tanging magagawa ko
That should be me hugging her
That should be me comforting her
Jealousy is eating me
I know that
But I still can't do anything...
Because I know that I am the reason why she is hugging someone else
And I am the reason why she is crying in someone else's shoulder
I've already let her go
So the only thing that I can do now is to watch her.....
Watch her from afar....
I already accepted that we are already over because I screwed up
I f*cking screwed up!
Marami sigurong nagsasabi ngayon na ang bobo ko
Yes,I am
I'm a f*cking stupid jerk
Marami sigurong nagsasabi sa inyo ngayon na why won't I fight for the one I love
I did
I really tried
But how can I win against my own guilt?
It hurts
It hurts so bad
It hurts to admit that I lost
I lost against my guilt
Because that's what I am
I can win against anyone if I want to,but I know that I can't win against myself
And it's myself that is telling me to let her go so I gave in
I did let her go
Looking at her now makes me think that how I wish we could've met in a different place and in a different time
Loving someone is not that easy
Loving her is not easy
But I'm glad because someday,If God wouldn't let us to be together I still have something to be grateful about.
Something I can smile about
Something that can never make me ashamed or down
It's the fact that a woman that strong,
A woman that beautiful,
A woman that perfect,
And A woman so fierce and fragile,
Was used to be mine.....
(You can play the song here)
*****
How are you?
Take care always<3
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Fearless:The Death League
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Chapter 52:Used to be Mine
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