Hogwarts Oneshots(PAUSED)

You Keep Me Alive(Mattheo Riddle x Reader)

A/n: This is about a very insecure girl that is placed in Slytherin. She is cunning and ambitious but she is also very kind, sweet, and smart. But her own self doubt about her own way of thinking and her supposedly fat body(She is not fat, she is skinny)keeps her from reaching her full potential. But when she meets Mattheo Riddle, her life changes. But the real question is, is it for the better? Or for the worse?

Warnings: Swearing, possible eating disorder, insecurities, there may be more I just don't know at the moment

Y/n POV

I lay in bed. I just woke up. My father and or mother are probably gonna storm into my room in about ten minutes and yell at me telling me to 'get your ass out of bed'. So, instead of waiting, I just got out of bed, got dressed, did my morning routine, and made sure I had everything ready to go to Hogwarts.

I walk downstairs and see my dad drinking coffee and my mom reading a magazine. I get some toast and eat.

"Ok, mom, dad, I'll write to you. I'm gonna miss you both," I say. I walk over and lightly hug my father and mother. "Have fun, sweetie," my mom says. "Get good grades," is all my father says. "Yes, father. I will mother," I respond to them both.

After that, I go to the car, load my things and tell the driver where to go. We get to the station and I go to the platform. I get on the train with my things and find an empty compartment. I put my earbuds in and play my paramore playlist. I open my sketchbook and start to draw.

About five minutes later, I feel a tap on my shoulder. I look up to see a blonde haired girl standing there with a friendly smile on her face. "Do you mind if I sit with you?" she asked. I smiled, "No, not at all. Take a seat," I say. She smiles and sits across from me. "I'm Luna Lovegood," she says with a kind smile. "Y/n, Y/n Colten," I responded to her with a small smile. We shake hands, I put my stuff back in my bag and then we sit in silence until the train starts to move.

After about five minutes of the train moving, she smiles and says "So, Y/n, I don't mean to be rude but judging by your clothing, you are either a slytherin or you just really like snakes?" I chuckle and look at my snake ring that can move and is alive but turns into a solid when it is done moving bracelet and bag. "Yeah, I am in Slytherin, but I also like snakes. Well, some only some breeds. I also love magical creatures. Like dragons, they're my favorite," I say with happiness. "Well, that is interesting. Tell me more about you. I only know your name and the fact that you're a Slytherin, so tell me more," she says.

I take a deep breath and look at the ground. Let it out and look back up at her. "Oh, well, where do I start? Um, I've been here at Hogwarts ever since I was eleven. So, a regular first year. I'm not that good looking. My home life sucks-" I say then she cuts me off which I don't mind. "How so?" she asks. Oh god, dread going into this. "Well, my parents aren't the best. My mother I think cares but when my father takes control, she doesn't. And anything that I want to say or tell my friends I can't because if it gets out I will most likely be killed by my own parents," Oh, crap, I shouldn't have said that. "I shouldn't have said that," I said. "It's alright. You can tell me anything. Even though I've only known you for ten minutes, but it's up to you. I'll keep your secrets," Luna says. "Thanks," I responded.

"Well, to tell you the truth, my father-well, no, not just him, both my parents are extremely abusive. Not all physical either. Emotion and mental abuse as well. They say things like 'you'll never get a boyfriend' and 'you're so fat' or one of my favorites 'why do you look like that?' They say the most awful things," I say. Just then I start to tear up and a couple tears fall down my face. As I cry, I choke the words out. "It's so hard to put on a straight face in front of people. Some days I just wanna put myself out of misery. But I can't do that. I hate my life, Luna, I hate it. I feel like I'm helpless. But, it is just so hard to go on. I hurt inside but I have to put on a fake smile everyday," then I break down completely. Luna moves over to my side and hugs me from the side. We sit there as I cry and she hugs me for a couple minutes. After that, I went to the bathroom to clean myself up even though my eyes were still red. On the way back I bumped into someone. With my head down, I looked at the ground. "Sorry," I muttered loud enough so they could hear me. But after I said that, the person still didn't move. I looked up only to be met with chocolate brown eyes with brown curly hair. Mattheo Riddle. He is the school's bad boy king. All the girls wanted him but me of course. I mean yeah I have a crush on him but I know I can't even get close to him to even try. He has scars on his face. One on his right eyebrow and the other across the bridge of his nose. And some other ones on his neck. My eyes looked at the scars he had then back into his eyes. I never noticed how mesmerizing they were. My thoughts got interrupted by a voice. "Hello?! Colten, don't run into me like that!" he said with a bit of an angered voice. I look away from him. "Sorry again," I said looking down. "You're beautiful," he muttered. I wasn't supposed to hear that. Well, at least someone thinks that. I chuckled a little then stepped to the side and went around him back to the compartment.