The Words I Was Too Afraid To Tell Her

Unforgettable

It's your voice I hear when I am lonely 

It's your smile I see when nothing goes my way

It's your laugh I hear when I am at peace

When it rains I remember how much you love watching the rain 

When the sun rises and sets I remember how you are my sun

The moon reminds me of how your happiness shines through me

The ocean reminds me of the depth of your mind

The stars remind me of the sparkle of your eyes

You were the first woman I loved

You taught me to love unconditionally

I have only one regret about loving you 

that we never had a chance to meet

I treasure every second we spent together

I gave you all the time I could spare

and some that I couldn't

I always remember some of the last words you told me:

"You were always there for me. I treasure those moments like a mad woman."

Though I thought I wasn't there nearly enough

You once told me to never place you above any woman I might marry

I will not close off my heart as I promised

You set the standard for all that wish to be ruler of my heart 

I hope my seasonal butterfly returns to unlock the nectar only she can reach

You once asked:

"Do you not want to live with me?!"

and my reply was:

"I don't want to live without you but I will if I have to."

This poem doesn't mean I moved on

It only serves to help me cope with feels I could never express

You are unforgettable princess

My promises to you must be fulfilled

as my duty to my mission in life must be

I only hope against everything that one day I could fulfill that mission with you by my side