𖣔 21st July 2021:
Holy shit I want to hate her. Is this a coping mechanism? Is that why I want to hate her? So much is going on and I want her so much that it's scaring me.
She never talks about her problems. She goes through things by herself and it makes me uncomfortable because I confinde in my friends and they confinde in me but she doesn't. And I don't like it. She keeps things to herself and never talks about it. And I want to help her but she just won't open up and I open up to my best friend about everything.
Kame really is the only one I truly have now. Even though she once betrayed me she's the only one there for me. My life is hopeless at this point. I'm trying and trying to pull myself out of the dungeon I've trapped myself in but as soon as I think I'm making progress, something else happens and I'm back to square one. How do people even bare that amount of pain. I don't think I can do it any longer.
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Randoma girl struggling with her spirituality and sexuality, stuck in a suicidal cycle. ~based on a somewhat true story~
