Happiness [GakuenBabysitters]

Cold

"Another home run! by our Kamitani Hayato!" everyone cheered one for me, everyone was here, mom, Taka, the others. 'why aren't you here?' I cursed as i ran from base to base. i ran to a base but it feels like im running towards you.

The game passed so fast, everything feels so fast, 'it's been 10 years Ryuu, 10 years of me not waking up to your kisses' i packed up my bags and went to meet the others. "Nii-san!" The little raven jumps on me.

"Hey, thanks for cheering me on" I said and ruffled his hair, the kids all went up to me and gave me a big hug to which i couldn't help but lean into. 'It's warm, warm but isn't as warm as you' I stoof up straight and patted their heads.

"You all have grown up well, how are your sports holding up" The twins play basketball, Kotarou plays soccer and ofcourse Taka plays baseball.

"We're doing great, Kazuma is horrible at shooting!"

"Im the team captain now!"

"Im doing fine Haya-Nii" I look to Kotarou, eyes don't lie little one. I could see how they mirror, the colour of your eyes are different but the sincerity you both have in them is overwhelming.

"Hayato-kun, congratulations! you're the Japanese league baseball captain!" For once in my life time i decided to be greatful that this slob and lazy adult that is now no longer Morinomiya Academy is in my life.

'Go get em Hayato-kun!'

'What if he's not into me?' He realized me that i had hope to be with him, that i had hope to hold the warm hand, the hand that i always wanted to hold, the figure i always want to wrap my arms around.

"Yeah thanks, Usaida-san" i sat up straight and waved my goodbyes "I need to do some paperwork, excuse me everyone" i went out the restaurant to a women leaning against my car. I smiled a little, even after these years mom has still been with me supporting me throughout the whole way 'Just like you before-'

"Leaving so soon?"

"Yeah, paperwork"

She gave me a look of sympathy, her usually fierce demeanor softened compelling mine to also soften more "Are you sure?" I nodded in appreciation for her worries.

"Im your son, strong like you want to be." I said and unlocked thr car, she moved out of the way "You can come home to us from your flat if you want, we'll welcome you anytime"

I let out a small chortle with a smile "I'll note that down, thanks mom" i drove away and the lavender air fresher made the car smell heavenly, but also like a hospital. 'We should get this, Lavender is my favorite scent!'

"I know, i know lavender is your favorite scent" i started talking to myself, im not crazy it's just to atleast make you feel alive around me. We always went out to eat somewhere even after celebrating with the others.

'I wanted to have alone time with you ofcourse, that cheering i did wore me out' i couldn't help but laugh slightly at the memories we had Ryuu, do you remember them? when you and i intertwine our fingers together, huddle up in our bed and watch a movie? do you remember them even in your death?

"Traffic" i mumbled as i got caught up in a red light, i opened social media and went to our voice notes. "Hayato! happy birthday to you, i wish you could come home soon so you can get your reward~" little pervert, but you're my little pervert. I smiled as i continued to drive listening to repeating your voice notes.

"Hey, Hayato do you know what i want?"

"What Ryuu?"

"For you to live your life to the fullest"

I still can't believe that you left that for me, it always pains me but warms my heart at the same time. after the long drive from the stadium i arrived back at my flat. i sighed a bit before opening the door.

"Welcome home Kamitani-san"

"I told you Hayato is okay Ryuu"

I went to it and i couldn't help but stare at him, he has brown eyes outlined with blue light around the irises, a short figure and the exact same fiery red hair. You have his appearance.

"Im sorry i forgot to inform you about the game"

"it's alright Kamitani-san, i was just about to put your laundry away"

You have his body, everything is the exact same but you don't have what i fell for. You don't have his heart, his human heart. overwhelming memories always get to me at random moments.

I couldn't help but pull an android to my hold "Kamitani-san? i need to do the laundry" i shook my head and held on to the metal back. "Can we stay like this for a while Ryuu?"

"Ofcourse"

Silence fell around us, it was just my desperate self hiding my face to it's chest.

"Kamitani-san..?" 'Hayato?'

"Yeah?" 'Yes Ryuu?'

"Are you sad?" 'I love you'

'I love you too Ryuu'