The Only Exception

Chapter 21

Chapter 21

"What do you mean you fucked things up?" ai Nikhaule while looking at me.

Saglit silang natigil sa ginagawa at parehong nag angat ng tingin sa akin.

Am I doing the right thing?

"Today, I'll talk to Conrad and patch things up. Our fight is long overdue." I said.

"That's great!" si Yngrid. Mababakas ang galak sa kanyang mukha.

"That's good to hear. Maganda ngang ikaw na lang ulit ang gumawa ng paraan para mag usap kayo." si Mei.

Sana nga...

"But what do you mean you fucked things up?" may kung ano sa paraan ng pagtitig sa akin ni Leesh. Na parang alam niya ang takbo ng isip ko, at may ideya na siya.

Ngumiti ako sa naiisip. "I will take Conrad back..." I said.

My heart doesn't agree with this, but this is my decision.

"Yes, you've said that a while ago. But what is it that you said you fucked things up? May nangyari ba?" Leesha added, she's not contented with what I've said.

I want to be honest with them. Ayaw kong maulit noon na saka ko lang sinabi ang totoo noong nahuli na kami. And I want to tell them how fucked up my life is, right now.

Will they able to understand me? Will they question me? Will they get disappointed of me?

I hope not.

"Two months ago, I was so sure I'd choose Conrad no matter what his reason for breaking me, but now, my heart wasn't sure anymore. Now I think I fucked things up because my heart contradicts with my decision of coming back." Ang sabi ko.

I heard a gasped to them. Nikhaule even dramatically covered her mouth with her palm.

"Oa na, Nikhaule." Cian tried to lighten the mood up.

"What do you mean, Curns?" si Yngrid na ngayon ay nawala ang bakas ng tuwa sa mukha.

She's now looking at me like she already knew what is happening. Inaantay na lang ang pagkumpirma ko.

Tahimik lang silang nakatingin sa akin. Those reactions from Yngrid made me think. Parang ang unusual sa akin na ganito siya kainteresado sa nangyayari sa amin ni Lester.

"What do you mean your heart was contradicting?" she specifically asked.

"Babalikan mo naman si Conrad, hindi ba?" She added, like she's hoping so bad.

Mapait akong tumango.

"Kahit anong mangyari, kahit anong magbago, pipiliin mo pa rin si Conrad, hindi ba?" ulit niya.

Now, the way she pleads were getting weird. Bakit ganito siya mag makaawang piliin ko si Conrad?

May dapat ba akong malaman?

Fuck! Bakit iba na ang naiisip ko? That's impossible! If he likes him, noon palang sinabi na niya! Noong si Conrad pa ang gusto ko at hindi pa... Shit!

Hindi na sana ako nasasaktan ng ganito! Hind na sana nagbago ang nararamdaman ko!

Tang ina! Pero ang isiping si Ryan at Yngrid na magkasama at nagmamahalan ay hindi ko kayang isipin man lang... Paano na kaya kung makita ko nga sa harapan ko? At paano ko pa kaya kakayanin yun ngayong mahal ko na si Ryan?

I would bleed to death.

"Why are you acting that way, Yngrid? Parang concern na concern ka naman yata... and, uhm... it's a little weird. You look so desperate." ani Cian na hindi na naman sinelyuhan ang bibig. Tumawa siya na parang nakakatawa ang nangyayari.