The Merciless Stud (Hot Trans Series #3)

Chapter 16

"Naman! Field of expertise ko ata iyan." Hambog kong sabi at sinadya ko talagang itaas-taas ang noo ko para inisin pa siya lalo.

"Disgusting! You lost your virginity already? To whom? Gagu ka, ah." Akma niyang itututok sa akin ang kanang kamao niya habang ang kaliwa ay nanatili sa manibela. Inis kong binalibag ang kamao niya.

"Biro lang! Ito naman di na ma playtime." Natatawa kong pinanood ang aburido niyang mukha.

"Don't tell me it was that Ford guy? Or that Patrick? Tang ina mo, Apple, siguraduhin mo lang gumamit ka ng condom!" He was really dead serious and I can't help but burst more into laughter.

"Joke lang, ano ba! May paglalaanan ako nito, noh! Atsaka, kung maka react ka naman parang virgin ka pa rin! We're equal, Apollo." Humupa ang tawa ko at pinunasan ang konting luha sa mata dahil sa pag-tawa. Damn. It's been months since the last time I laughed like this. At ngayon pang ipapaon ko na ang sarili ko sa apoy. Na para bang sa isang iglap ay ibinalik sa akin ng mundo ang lahat bilang pabaon sa nalalapit kong pagkaka-rupok sa apoy. Fuck!

"Kuya mo ako kaya huwag mo akong ma-equal equal. I have no sister and you happened to turn into one so respect and deal with my protectiveness." He said sternly. Patuya kong binuka-buka ang bibig ko at ngumisi ulit sa huli.

My heart eventually warmed when what Kuya said finally dawned on me. Apollo as a brother does not express his care and affection through sugary words. He would threaten me, scare me with his fist and curse the hell out of me. But I know that he's a good brother. He never shamed me for my gender orientation. Nor question it when we were still young and he noticed that we do not share the same interests. He has learned to take it all in by himself and respected me simply by letting me have it my way and calling me 'Apple'.

Minsan nga lang ay nagkakamali pa rin sa pronoun ko. I suddenly remembered Claire. She told me about her martyrdom towards my brother. That no matter how unresponsive my Kuya is to all of her advances, still chooses to stick with him. Uncanny it is, but I found comfort in Claire's presence. Not that I am using the gender role card but to think that she's a cis woman yet still act like she would ran out of dick somehow gave me a bullshit excuse for myself to really push through in pursuing Tyson. Ako pa kaya na walang kipay eh mag-iinarte? I know it's not right to compare. Ugh! I don't know. I'm really going crazy.

Sumulyap ako kay Kuya na tahimik lang na nag-mamaneho. I smiled.

"What do you think of Claire, Kuya?" I asked. Ang kaliwang kamay niya ngayon ay tamad ng naka-hawak sa kaliwang pisngi niya.

"What about, Claire?" He sighed. I feel bad for Claire as I personally witnessed how uninterested my brother is in talking about her.

"Well, do you find her hot? A girlfriend material, perhaps?" Pinanood kong maigi ang ekspresyon ni Kuya. Kumunot ang noo niya at kumibot ang labi. Pagkatapos ay umiling.

"I don't see her like that, Aps. Just a friend."

Kumirot ang puso ko. Tang ina, kahit aburido ako sa chararat na iyon pero nasaktan ako sa sagot ni Kuya. I have witnessed how Claire was doing everything she could for Apollo. That even without my support, like she has always asked from me, still she continued in pursuing my brother.

Siguro nasasaktan ako dahil nakikita kong nasa pareho kaming sitwasyon ni Claire. To be disgustingly infatuated with someone that it would eventually turn you into a pathetic, laughable desperate bitch is both sad and scary. And the only thing that would keep your drive in getting that person is that maybe, one day, the tables will turn, the heaven will be in your favor, and he will like you and want you back. And if we are to sum it all up, that is uncertainty.