Caught off guard

𝑆1:𝐸𝑝22~𝐽𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑛𝑒𝑦 𝑇𝑜 𝑅𝑒𝑔𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑠

(pretend Andy is Mercedes.)

after i look round, seeing my moms disapproval and everyone hugging and at that moment realise, my life couldn't get better.

~♫♫♫~

we all head backstage and jessie stops me "you said you weren't performing." he says

"well i lied. i lied jessie, I've been lying all year. more fool you to think you were different." i say

"but we are cousins-"

"jessie please don't act like you didn't join new directions just to ditch them when it came close to competition... but break a leg." i say looking him up and down "maybe two, you might need it." i say walking off

"GUYS!" i hear Quinn yell "my water broke!" she yells

~♫♫♫~

we all head to the hospital and get told to wait in the waiting room. I'm between Britt and Santana as they both hold my hands Santana holding me much tighter 

"what do i do next San?" i ask with despair in my voice

"what do you mean?" she says

i look to her and want to tell her everything. i want to tell her how I've been hurting myself and the drugs made me forget but now its all i can think about again. how i want to yell so loudly i ruin my vocal chords. i want to tell her how i think I'm spilling into quicksand but i down want her to slip with me, i don't want her to fall. all i want is for her to be happy but she cant do that when she is worrying about me.

"nothing." i say shaking my head holding her tighter "nothing at all."

~♫♫♫~

we head back and wait on the stage to hear what the results are. sue has the mic and begins "thank you all for coming. as you all know, glee club is such an important... and i honestly cant even finish that sentence, so lets just get to it." she says pulling out the cards "the 2010 Midwest regional runners-up...from fort Wayne, Indiana, the not at all stupidly named Aural intensity." sue says and they cheer and yell

leaving just us and vocal adrenaline next to each other jessie looks at me with fury in his eyes and i look at him right back with the exact same intensity "and now, your 2012 mid west regionals show choir champions..." she looks round then speaks "vocal adrenaline!" she yells though the speaker shattering all our hearts. i don't reach our for anyone. as jessie is carried he watches as a single tear falls from my eye

"we didn't even place." Artie says before we walk off stage