Murderer Mystery || J.JK FF ✓

{34} Why

After ranting, it results in a silence between the both of us. The silence continues for a bit before Jungkook drops the knife and fork both at the same time onto the tissue. Drumming his fingers, he gazes at me, with this look I couldn't describe, but it looks soft. Averting his gaze, I fiddle with my fingers.

Without saying anything, he leaned forward and grabbed my hand, putting it in his as he softly caresses it. I wanted to slap him for invading my privacy but he was tightening the hold on my hand. It didn't hurt... it was actually warm.

"Y/N, do you ever wonder why the teacher paired you up with me as roommates?" He asked me, as though he was about to tell me a huge, unknown secret. He drifted his gaze from me and onto my hand in which he was caressing softly.

I shook my head. "Because you had no choice?" I guessed and he shakes his head as he let out a chuckle.

"Y/N, I was the one who asked the teacher to be paired up with you, not because I didn't have a choice." He admitted with no regret forming on his face and my eyes widen in disbelief.

Noticing how I was going to blow up in rage, he gave me a small smile as he opens his mouth to explain. "Y/N, you were a new student who was extremely lost as you were faced with many difficulties and horrid things. And as a student who's labeled responsible to take care of new students, it is my job to take care of you."

I frowned at him as I couldn't comprehend what he was saying because it sounded like bullshit to me.

"Really? Are you saying what Yerim told me are lies?" I questioned him and his forehead creased in curiosity. "What did she tell you?" He asked me and I smiled, glad he asked. "She told me so many awful things about you that is so revolting is kind of hard for me to say it." I exaggerated, wanting to see how he reacted but he stayed blank.

"And? What exactly did she say?"

"Well, she did say that it was your responsibility that you took care of every new student which was true but you didn't. Boy or girl, she also said that you couldn't care less of what happened to them, and whenever a situation like this happens, you never VOLUNTEER to have them as roommates, like never."

"So? What does that got to do with you?" He asked as he went back cutting the pancakes and putting each of the small pieces into his mouth, chewing on them.

"Nothing. You said that I'm your responsibility because I'm new, but you never helped the other new students. Why?" I asked him and he continues gazing at his pancake, seeming to be ignoring me.

"Because I wanted to." He simply said.

"Additionally, I recalled Dani saying that you kicked the other three new students out from each of the last three years because they were accused of being the murderer... I was accused of being the murderer too yet I didn't get kick out. Why?"

"Because Dani is a salty b*tch that needs to go get a life. Period." 

"That doesn't answer my question you coconut-head. The way you act differently around me scares me. Like, what do you want? What's so interesting about me that makes you want to take care of me? I am entitled to the fact that you hate me and I hate you. Mutual feelings towards each other." I responded, as he dropped both of the utensils once again and looked at me intensely.

"Since when did I said I hated you?" He questions me. "I just joke and play around with you a lot, are you uncomfortable?" He added and my eyebrow furrowed. "If you're uncomfortable, then tell me and I'll stop." He said, as though it was simple. "Plus, the way you worded it, makes it seems like I'm going to take advantage of you."

"Because you might? I'm just saying it because it might be a possibility." I responded sharply.

"If I was to ever take advantage of you in whatever ways that makes you feel uncomfortable or without your consent, I would be extremely disappointed in myself." He pondered. "Why?" He asked for me, folding his arms. "Because hurting someone who's considered important to me is just not something that exists in my life."

"Oh? I'm considered-"

"Y/N." He pronounces my name to stop me from talking which I thought was disrespectful of him. "Please stop talking for a few minutes and hear me out, alright?"

Didn't know how to respond or react, I merely nodded.

Unfolding his hands, he leaned towards me, crossing his arms as he places them on the table. Staring at me with his huge bambi eyes. "If you're ever uncomfortable about how I act around you, please remember that I promise I'll never hurt you physically or mentally, I promise I'll never touch you without your consent. Instead, I'll protect you and take care of you as a promise to the teacher and yourself. Please trust me on this." He practically begged me and I bit my lip, unsure of what to say or act. "I only make promises I can keep." He added, his lips forming into a pout.

I found it cute but I mentally slap myself and nodded.

"I hear you. But why? Why are you doing this for someone so idiotic and so... I don't know but revolting makes you just want to clench your jaw in anger. Like, just why? You're just doing this out of pity aren't you?"

He shakes his head, giving me a look in which it was hard to understand.

"Then, why? There should be a reason right?" I questioned and he agreed by nodding. "Tell me, why?" I repeated the question. Tilting his head, he passed me a smile that I describe as lovingly.

"Because I like you." 

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~Xin