Silence

54. Power Crazed Lunatics.

Shizukana's P.O.V.

Anxious. I felt anxious.

Lady Tsunade sent a message informing me she will give me the results of my condition. They had taken several tests, and the results were due today.

A small part of me was excited, yet I couldn't help but feel fear bubbling in my chest. Many thoughts of doubt filled my mind.

I shook all the negativity off before clenching and unclenching my palm in frustration.

I could feel Kakashi Sensei's stare, but I didn't dare look at him. It had been a few days since my second panic attack. The doctors had informed Lady Tsunade and Lady Shizune, which meant that Kakashi Sensei also knew.

I was grateful that he hadn't brought it up, but I knew the topic was bound to come up.

I clacked my teeth when Sensei closed his book and let out a heavy sigh. "Shizukana?"

I wordlessly looked up to meet Sensei's eye. He didn't look angry. He looked concerned.

"Has this happened before?" Kakashi Sensei asked, and I hesitated with my answer. I knew exactly what he was talking about.

I closed my eyes, knowing that lying won't help. "Once," I answered. I peeked through my eyelids. Sensei was nodding to himself.

"You're not angry?" I blurted out. I widened my eyes when I said that. I shouldn't have said that.

A flash of confusion flitted across Sensei's eye. "Angry? Why would I be angry?" He implored.

"I should have told you before," I responded. I opened my mouth to speak, but I was cut off.

"Shizukana, panic attacks are a sensitive topic. If you didn't feel like mentioning it before, it's fine." He voiced. Just know that you have someone to talk to."

Before I could respond, the door opened and Lady Tsunade walked in, with Lady Shizune behind her. Lady Tsunade kept reading several files while Lady Shizune held a pet pig in her hands.

It was Ton Ton. I had seen her several times in the hospital and at the Hokage's office.

I couldn't help but smile at the sight. She was so cute. Lady Shizune eyed me before placing the pig on the bed.

Ton Ton trotted close to me and licked my hand before nuzzling her snout under my palm. I gently petted her head.

She oinked in response, causing me to let out a soft chuckle. I glanced at Kakashi Sensei to find him staring at me in amusement.

"Ton Ton seems to have taken a liking to you." Lady Shizune said. She moved to grab a clipboard, which was on the table.

"She's usually shy around others." Lady Tsunade said, removing her glasses. "How are you feeling?" She asked me, turning a little serious.

"Fine, I guess," I answered while absentmindedly petting Ton Ton. I looked at Lady Tsunade to study her expressions. She had read the file. It must be good news or bad. Instead, Lady Tsunade held a stoic and calm expression that prohibited me from reading her.

She must have had experience breaking news to patients.

"So, we have good news and bad news." Lady Tsunade spoke. She looked at the files before looking back at me. "So good news first? Or bad news?"

I shrugged in response. It didn't matter. Choosing which to say first would not change the outcome.

Lady Tsunade sighed. "Alright. Good news first." She paused before continuing. "Your wound is healing with no difficulty. I will reduce some of the painkillers that you have been taking."