Chapter One:
"You are such a fucking jerk! Tangina mo. Tarantado kang lalaki ka. Wag na wag mo nang ipapakita yang pagmumukha mo saakin!" I cried as I threw all his stuff to his face.
Fuck this man. Walangya siya. After all that I've done and we've been through, malalaman ko lang na niloloko lang pala niya ako. I love him, and I thought he do too... Pinaniwala niya ako.
"Look, Thia. I'm sorry—"
"Get out!"
He obviously wanted to say something to me before leaving dahil ilang beses niya akong sinubukan pang lapitan. But I pushed him away. I don't need anything from him anymore. Hayaan ko nalang siya na gawin lahat ng gusto niya. We're done.
Umiiyak man at nanghihina parin ay sinikap kong tumayo at tumungo sa kwarto upang maidlip. Nang makahiga sa kama ay hindi ko parin maiwasang mapa-isip kung ano bang naging dahilan.
Nagkulang ba ako? Sumobra ba ako? Did I do something wrong? Was I too controlling to him or something?
I want to know. I want to know kung bakit sa halos anim na taon napagsasama namin ay nagawa niy pang pumunta mismo sa bahay ko at sabihin saakin na mahal parin niya ang ex niya, at kasal na sila.
Fuck him.
So what? Have they been seeing each other while we're together? For how long? Were they doing this since the beginning? Fuck him then. Tangina niya.
I cried myself out that night. I want to sleep. I want to rest myself but I couldn't. Tinatalo ng utak at emosyon ko ang kagusuhan kong magpahinga.
Nang hindi parin ako naka-idlip ay nagpasya na akong lumabas na muna.
I didn't know where to go. I just walked until I found myself sitting on a bench near the shore. Malapit sa isang club ngunit hindi sapat upang marinig ang ingay na nagmumula dito.
I just sat there and watched the moon and it's reflection in the sea.
"You shouldn't be alone here, you know." Suddenly, a man talked behind me. I looked and saw a beautiful man standing behind me.
"Why can't I? Lahat nalang ba, bawal saakin?" I casually said and looked away.
The man scoffed and leaned on the coconut tree beside me. I could feel his stare but I didn't look back. Aalis din 'to.
But I was wrong. He stood there nang napakatagal that it was already annoying me.
"Do you need anything po ba?" I tried to make myself polite.
"Wala. I'm just waiting for something." Pigil ngisi nitong sambit.
I didn't mind him nalang. Bahala siya.
I checked my watch and it was already 1:48 am. Ngunit heto ako, hindi parin makaramdam ng antok. And still, the man from awhile ago still didn't leave.
"I just broke up with my boyfriend. Today." The man remained silent as I continued to talk.
"We've been together for almost six years and in that six years. Never... Never did I imagine that he would hurt me like this." I started sobbing when I remembered how he told me his promises and what he told me awhile ago."
"Am I that replaceable? Do I look like someone na gagamit-gamitin nalang? Do I look like someone na sasaktan siya kaya inunahan na niya ako?" Hindi ko na napigilan ang pagbuhos ng luha ko. Tears were streaming down to my cheek already.
Lumapit ang lalaki at umupo sa tabi ko. He handed me a handkerchief and looked at the moon.
"You're beautiful. You don't look like someone replaceable. Your ex was just a piece of stupid shit." He scoffed.
"Everyone have choices in everything. But he chose the wrong one." Dagdag niya.
Natahimik ako sa kaniyang sinabi. It's true. I once thought about it too. We all have choices in every situation, it's just that we sometimes choose the wrong one that leads us to the wrong path. Ngunit kung sinimulan natin ng magaling ang pagdedesisyon at pag-gawa ay hindi tayo maleleft out with no choice.
He glanced at me and chuckled again.
Parang tanga.
"Wanna grab a drink?" Suddenly, he asked. I smirked and stood up, he smiled back and stood up too.
"Okay."
Heartielle || HDG
