Realizations

Chapter 18

He walks around the corner to the livingroom and stops. He looks at me for a moment before recognition flashes in his eyes. I do look a little different after all.

"Bells" he gasps out, rubbing his eyes. He probably thinks he's seeing ghosts.

"Yea dad, it's really me." I say chuckling.

He walks around the couch and sits on the table in front of me.

"But how? You died in a car accident a week ago. It was your truck, and I saw the ashes." He says, still not quite believing I'm really here.

"It's kind of a long story dad. And I can't tell you all of it, because you would be in danger. I can however tell you everything that you absolutely need to know." I said.

"I want to know as much as you can tell me bells. I missed you so much baby!" He cried, pulling me into a hug.

"I missed you too dad." I choked out, with venom tears in my eyes.

Charlie smelled delicious. Absolutely mouthwatering, but I wasn't hunting right now. Charlie is not scum. He is my sweet and loving father. I need him in my life.

A couple minutes later we had both finally calmed down enough to continue our talk. He broke the hug and gave me a kiss on the cheek before telling me to continue with my story. I'll tell him parts of the truth, but most of it has to be a lie. I hate lieing to my father, he doesn't deserve to be lied too.

"OK so let's start from the beginning. The Cullens are different. I can't tell you what they are because that will put your life in danger, and I can't have that. Anyways they all left the Saturday I went to stay there, except for Jasper. Alice didn't stay with me, that was a lie. Usually Jasper was never around me. Edward and Alice told me it was because he didn't like me, which was also a lie. I've always been interested in Jasper. He's quiet, kind and he likes the same things I do. I found out after the family left that he has also been interested in me for along time. Alice and Edward told him the same thing they told me, that I didn't like him at all. They also made him believe I was scared of him.

You see Alice, Edward and Jasper all have a gift. Alice can see the future, Edward can read minds, except for mine, and Jasper can feel and alter people's emotions. Alice saw that Jasper and I would fall in love and want to be together. So her and Edward kept us away from each other.  Me and Jasper found out that we were being lied too and manipulated by Edward and Alice. They both never really loved us, they were using us. I'm not exactly sure why they used us, but they did. We also found out that Edward and Alice have been together behind our backs for awhile now.

Anyways the morning of my death I really did set off to the store. A deer ran out in front of my truck, and I swerved trying not to hit it. I ended up hitting that tree, and unfortunately hit the deer also, killing her instantly. I felt so bad for her. I wished that I had run over Alice and Edward instead. I was still so beyond pissed at them, it wasn't even funny.

An idea came to me as I was thinking about them. If I broke up with Edward when he got home, the Cullens would probably leave again, taking Jasper with them. I couldn't have that dad, I really like him. So I put the deer in my truck and set it on fire. I set my shoes on fire too, but made sure they were still recognizable. Then I walked back to the house and told Jasper what I did and what my plan was.

I know I look more like the Cullens now than I do you and Renee.  I really wish I could tell you why, but I cant. And I need you to be OK with it. I will always be here for you dad no matter what.

Anyways back to my story. I got back to the Cullens and told Jasper my plan. We were going to let everyone think I was dead, then after my funeral he was going to leave Alice and we were going to move in with a couple of his friends in Texas, so that Edward and Alice would leave us alone.

The Cullens got home late Friday and believed the story Jasper told them. All of them were heart broken, except Alice and Edward. Alice was happy I was gone and Edward, we'll I don't know what he was thinking, but he sure wasn't heart broken. I knew I couldn't leave the other Cullens thinking I was dead, so I used my power to tell them.

I am what is called a shield. It's why Edward could never read my mind. I learned how to extend my shield to cover others. When people are under it Edward can't read their minds and Alice can't see their futures. I can also communicate with people through their minds. I put the shield around Carlisle, Esme, Rose and Emmett and told them everything. I also had to put a block up in their minds so that Alice and Edward can't see me, when the others think of me. I'm going to have to put a block in your mind to dad.

I originally was just going to let you think I was dead, but I love you too much. Jasper left Alice last night, and we have been staying in a hotel.

And dad I know that it's going to be hard, but no one can know I'm alive, not even mom. She is not strong enough for this. You have always been a very strong person dad and I can't live my life without you in it."

Charlie was quiet the whole time I was talking. His emotions were everywhere. The strongest was hate, which only got stronger when I mentioned Edward and Alice. We sat in silence for several minutes, while he processed everything and figured out how to respond. Finally after what felt like a lifetime he found the right words.

"Bells I understand why you did what you did. I'm definitely not happy with those two, but I won't do anything to them. Your secret is safe with me bells,  I'm just so happy that your still alive. I've always liked that Jasper, he's a very good young man. Just make sure he treats you right or he's going to have to answer to me. It's definitely a lot to take in and not all of it has sunk in yet. I don't need to know every detail, just what's necessary for me to know. Just stay in touch with me and visit, or let me visit you and I'll be ok. I love you bells." He said as he pulled me into another hug.

"I love you too dad, so much. I'm really going to miss you. And I promise to keep as close to you as you want." I told him truthfully.

We sat in the livingroom talking for another hour before I put the block in his mind. I packed a few things from my room that I wanted and headed downstairs giving Charlie my new cell number before saying goodbye and leaving.

I ran back to the hotel happy. I have both of my families in my life, minus my mother and Phil. Charlie doesn't know everything but he loves me and can still talk to me. I have everything that I've ever wanted. I'm finally a vampire, I've got a loving family and a wonderful mate. So far I love this life.

END OF CHAPTER 18. WHAT DOES EVERYONE THINK? IM STILL NOT SURE WHAT THE THREAT THEY HAVE TO FACE SHOULD BE. IT COULD BE MARIA,  THE VOLTURI, EDWARD AND ALICE (IF THEY MANAGE TO FIGURE OUT BELLA IS ALIVE), VICTORIA, OR A NEW THREAT. I COULD MAKE IT ALL OF THE ABOVE AND HAVE IT BE THE BIGGEST BATTLE EVER!

ALL CHARACTERS AND MOST PLACES ELONG TO STEPHANIE MEYER. ALSO SOME DIALOG THROUGHOUT THE STORY.

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