We meet again. -Lachambers

"Tell me everything"

-(Gordie POV)-                        

 [[At the diner]]

Chris took my hand and pulled me over to the corner booth and we sat in it facing eachother and he looked at my hands. But he was staring and it made me uncomftable because i knew in his head he was judging me. After a while i moved my hand and told Chris that i didn't want him so stare but a little while later it felt like he was attacking me so i flipped and walked to the toilets.In the toilets i did my usual over thinking and it had been about 5 miute and i walked back out Chris was chomping on onion rings, it's baffling how this boy could even pull off stuffing onin rings in his mouth..And with that thought i sat down back at my seat staring at the food for a few seconds then back at Chris and i was thinking about eating the food and he told me it was for me, he paid for my food..I knew he wasn't the richest of guys but he must've used the last of his money on me so i had to eat the burger and fries now. And  told him not to attack me if i didn't finish them. Later on i had finished the food and i was pretty tired, Chris knew i was tire he just saw right through me. I love and hate that about Chris ,i do. But apparently theres nothing i can do about it. He took me home and back up the curved tree to my room.

I noticed Chris by my desk but i knew there wasn't anything bad on it so i hopped into be and fell right to sleep assuming Chris would just leave after i fell asleep.

-(Chris POV)-

While Gordie had fallen asleep i looked through the 'reasons why not' piece of paper i read names and things on the list like, it said;

Chris Chambers- He has helped me too much just for me to dissapear out of his life

That's when i realised what this note was.And there had to be reasons why. My Gordie was going to hurt himself real bad so i had to see the reasons why and try fix them. I searched around his messy desk and saw a note pad, it had gold writing on the black leather stating "Gordie's Book".I hesitantly opened it while reading through a few pages,they were only the size of a little  a5/a6 sheets of lined paper but with his neat curvey writing he could an absurd amount of words into it then i came across a page, "my reasons why". His nice curvey writing now seemed sad as i read that and read that back, I lightly flicked the page and read from reason 1-5. For others 1-5 reasons may be not a lot but for the usual bright bubbly Gordie who would never lie or joke about death or self harm. His first reason i read then his second, third and fourth..But the one that really got me was reason number 5 stated:

"Family-

Without Denny, without Chris..What would i be,Who would i be? Mom doesn't talk to me anymore and dad has never talked to me unless to critisise me. So whats the point, what's the damn point of me being here? I don't think i belong with anyone but Chris and he won't want me in this state so what is the point, maybe i can't just go see Denny and not look back..

But i can't leave him"

I couldn't believe i was the only reason this boy was alive,if i had left him any longer i fear he would've done something he regretted and i would regret, with that thought i put the book down quietly and went over to the side of the bed where he was and gently lay my head against the side of his matress by his skinny hands as they drooped down the bed.Gordie had passed out not long ago but it seemed like hours since i had heard Gordie's voice.I slowly lay back and my eyes closed and i fell asleep to the sounds of Gordie's quite unoften snores and the thoughts about his note book. And before i fully fell asleep the words 

"Don't leave me Lachance,please.."

Suddenly i was asleep and from there were nightmares..

-(Gordie POV)-

The next day i woke up to the sound of a 1950 mercury convertible coup engine and listening to it leav the drive-way i felf a slight tug by the side of my bed, i looked down to see a mousy haired boy sleeping in a ball and i noticed his eyebrows twitching and his face squirmed up. At first i wondered how he ended up on my bedroom floor then i remembered about last night. The most i can do to thank him was to make him some breakfast but first i should probably make sure he is okay and get him a glass of water. As i slowly creeped out of my room to the bathroom to get the glass and fill it with water i turned at the sound of whimpers coming from my room and i quickly turned the tap off and walked as fast as i could to the room  where chris sat he said the words,

"Gordie no..." quietly,his breathing getting suddenly heavier

"Chris im right here," I said calmly placing my hand on his knee

"Why did you go..?"He said the volume of his voice increased as he was visably shaking

"Chris, i-"

"Get away from him- He can't be de-" Chris started shouting toward the end of his nightmare then woke up crying at the sigh of me, most of the time people like being comforted i struggled to wonder why Chris didn't, then with a sudden move he grabbed me to the floor and hugged me. He suddenly said with a shakey voice ,

"Gor-die, don't leave m-e.. You can't go.." I hugged him as tight as i could with my skinny, muscleless arms.

"I'm not going anywhere Chris don't worry.."

His tears had cleared up and i gave hm the glass of water to calm him down a bit more becuase he was still very shakey.As we stood up he glanced at my dangling arms and spotted what seemed like a scratch to him and he confronted me.

"Gordie what is that?" He exclaimed, "Gordie show me your arm now!"

His voice was demanding like my dad's so i immediatly complied, he took one look and comletely freaked out but the first words that came out of his mouth were

"Tell me everything"

"No Ifs, No Buts. Tell me why properly this time."