MBS1 : My Patient is a Mafia Boss

Continuation

And more than that I love briar too as my friend and a sister, malaki rin ang naitulong nya sa akin Ng dumating sya dahil kahit papaano Hindi na ako masyadong pinag iinitan ng ulo ni zack, pinaramdam rin sa akin ni briar Kung gaano ako kaimportante sa kanya at sya Ang ikalawang babaeng naging kaibigan ko na nag paramdam sa akin Ng ganun after I lost Vhrandish

she also clear herself to me na hanggang friend Lang nya talaga si Zack dahil Si death Ang Mahal nya, At first of course I didn't care dahil Wala naman akong feelings for Zack so it's just fine for me Kung anong maging relationship nila o Kung ano man

but to my luck mukhang ako Ang pinag diskitahang pakaruan ni kupido dahil Hindi nag tagal at nakita ko nalang Ang sarili kong minamahal na si zack

So yeah... I can't be mad at Briar and I'm trying really not to, and I can't blame her either, she's to important at Yun na rin siguro ang dahilan Kung bakit asakanya ang lahat Ng attention, she's so special in her very own way, and I adore her for being like that

But of course Hindi nun maiibsan Ang sakit sa dibdib ko, it can't change the fact na nasasaktan parin ako...

And there's no one to blame but me, I made a Choice and it has consequences.

"Look at you Ezra your a mess, your parents exchange you for money, you are forced to get married at the young age, you didn't finish your school either so your dumb enough to fall inlove!, and most of all no one is loving you back like you wanted to, your life is pretty miserable..." I whisper again

Ang sakit Lang talaga... Naiisip ko nanaman Ang lahat ng kamalasang nangyari sa aking buhay, and it's not helping me

And for sure I look insane dahil ginagawa kong pag sasalita ng walang kausap, and it's funny on how I'm good on giving advices to others as a psychiatrist but can't even advice for myself

But what can I do? I live on such a cruel society, and I have my own problems too.

In my whole life no one even listen to me, I was a loner so I'm not good at interactions and such things, I was too afraid to humiliated myself, Ito rin ang dahilan Kung bakit kinuha kong trabaho ay ang pagiging psychiatrist

by being psychiatrist I can interact with more people and encounter some people like me that who can be called an out cast

ayokong maramdaman ng ibang tao ang mga nararamdaman ng isang taong nag iisa tulad ko, so as much as possible I'm helping all of my clients to look and find for the brighter side and start living with contentment in life, I Also listen to their problems at sa lahat ng mga hinaing nila sa buhay dahil ayokong maranasan nila Ang naranasan ko na walang nakikinig sa akin and having no-one to be on my side

Being a psychiatrist is hard but it changes me and I love my work, dto sa part na to kami ni briar magkaparehas, we're too kind and it make us selfless

but Maybe meron Lang talagang mga bagay na kahit saan talaga tumingin ay wala kang makikitang brighter side... it's just that. Period. Wala kang magagawa

I sighed...

I should stop this nonsense drama...

I mean, what I'm even thinking? Well at least I'm surviving and have a job to support me even though I didn't finish my studies... I guess that's enough to be proud of? Right?

"Yeah totally... dapat Hindi ako umiiyak ngayun, I should stop this drama, walang matutulong to" I said then tumango sa sarili ko, encouraging myself since Wala namang ibang gagawa nun kundi ako lang

Yeah! You can still do it Ezra! You already come so far it's not time to feel this nonsense things, pag subok lang to at normal sa buhay... Malalagpasan mo Rin to