The Oldest Nara: Kakashi x Reader

34: Beauty & Essex

"Our son?" my voice cracked as I looked at them. "Why didn't she tell me?"

My heart was pounding up through my ears, and I thought my body was going to collapse right there.

She was pregnant...

"Oh Kakashi," Yoshino's voice changed completely once they realized I had no idea, and she immediately brought me into a hug. I broke down as she held me.

I wasn't used to having people around when handling bad news, but Y/n had made me soft. Not going through things alone felt so comforting.

"I'm so sorry," she whispered out. "We assumed you knew."

"She didn't want anyone to have to worry about anything other than Asuma," we all looked over to see Tsunade and Jiraiya walking in.

"You knew?" I asked her.

Tsunade nodded, "I'm the one who told her. I realized it when I was healing her from Kakuzu's attack."

"Why the hell wouldn't you tell me?!" I couldn't help but to yell. I never lost my composure, but this was way more than I was prepared to deal with.

"I couldn't," she shook her head. "It wasn't my news to tell."

"But that was my child too!"

"Look, let's all just take a deep breath," Jiraiya added. "Shikaku told us what happened, and we came right over. We need to focus on what comes next."

Yoshino sat down next to Shikaku who hid his face in his hands as he stayed quiet. The air was tense for a moment, none of us really knowing what to say or do next.

There was so much to think about now. Y/n really shouldn't be fighting with her condition, and the Akatsuki attack Shikamaru planned depended heavily on her.

Also, I'm assuming Itachi attacked because he found out, so he'll probably be obsessing over her.

And then there's her state of mind. Both of us, we'd have to figure this all out together. No wonder she's been so distant and looks so broken.

Why the fuck does she keep building her walls even higher when I'm clearly trying to break through? It's so frustrating.

"Hey, why are you all here?" Y/n asked softly as she walked into the room, rubbing the sleepiness out of her eyes.

I rushed over and threw my arms around her, bringing her as close to me as she could come.

"Oh, uh, hi..." she mumbled before hugging me back. She probably felt uncomfortable with everyone being there to watch, but I didn't care.

She didn't know I knew about everything now, but I needed her to.

"Kakashi? Are you ok?" her voice was soft and gentle as she held me, carefully rubbing the back of my neck like she always did when I collapsed into her like this.

I couldn't help but to cry as I stood there. I absolutely hated how much she cared about other people more than herself.

It's sweet in theory, but not when you have to be the one watching her drown.

Even more so, I hated how I could never read her. I never knew how much she was hurting until it was too late.

I did everything I could to get myself together and pulled away to look at her. I caressed her face, staring intensely into her eyes that had been so hollow these last few days, but held so much love whenever she stared at me.

How was I so lucky to have someone as amazing as her? She didn't deserve the constant heartbreak she felt.

She smiled softly as she looked at me, nuzzling further into my hand. I stroked my thumb lightly across her cheek, "I love you, Y/n."