Anna's life

Chapter 13

"Why? You know I would never hurt you I just want to show you how much I like you" he said and he started kissing my neck again

"I know but I don't think I'm ready for that yet I mean last week I became your girlfriend I feel like it's too soon" I said and he pulled away

"So you don't want to have sex with me?" David asked annoyed

"No, at least not today" I said and he rolled his eyes while gettin up from the couch

"Get out" he said and I widen my eyes in shock

"What?" I said

"Get the fuck out Anna clearly you don't know how to have fun"David said with anger

"I don't know how to have fun? David listen to yourself it's my choice if I want to have sex with you or not you can't just guilty trip me into that it's supposed to be a mutual thing" I said back annoyed

"Yeah right you're just fucking selfish just like you were with your mother"he said and I felt the air leaving my lungs

David was the second person to ever open up about my feelings and what happend to my mother and now he's using it against me because I won't have sex with him

I felt tears coming to my eyes

"Fuck you David, fuck you!" I said and I left

I was hurt

I thought he really cared

I thought he liked me

I thought he meant every word he said to me

But I was wrong

He just wanted to have sex with me

I started running like a crazy person while crying

I ran and ran and ran for 15 minutes

I felt my lungs close and my chest was getting tight from the tears and the running and I was getting dizzy

I got to my house and I immediately opened the door and starting climbing the stairs without talking to anyone

Luke, Ashton and Calum were all in the house today while Michael had a 911 call

I went into my room closing the door and I put my hands above my head while pacing around my room trying to breathe

Not even a minute later all three of the boys were in my room looking at me concerned

Luke

We were sitting in the living room talking about a surgery when we heard the door open and we saw Anna running upstairs crying while she breathed heavily

We looked at each other before we all got up and followed her to her room where she was crying and trying to breathe while pacing around

She was having a full blown panic attack

"Baby calm down and look at me" I said while moving closer to her

She didn't answer she just kept pacing

"Anna listen to me, focus on my voice baby" I said trying to calm her down but nothing seemed to help

"Calum go get a relaxer and her inhaler" I said quickly and Calum ran downstairs

I gently grabbed Anna's hands from above her hand and I guided her to sit on the floor

"Baby I need you to take deep breaths for me okay?" I said looking at her gasping for air

" I-I-ca-can't" she said between crying and gasping

"Yes you can baby look at my eyes, focus on my breathing" I said while I grabbed one of her hands and put it on my chest breathing deeply

Just as she was getting slightly better she started sobbing harder and yelling

"I'm s-selfish I-I did it!" She screamed and pulled away

I hugged her and I tried listening to her lungs and feeling their movements

It was bad she was wheezing

"Calum give me the inhaler!" I said and he quickly threw it to me

I quickly put the inhaler in her mouth hoping it would help

She tried taking a deep breath as I pushed the medicine into her mouth

But the inhaler did nothing she kept gasping and wheezing

I nodded to Calum and he came by her side rolling up her sleeve

"No!No!let me go!" Anna started screaming as she understood what was about to happen

I hugged her tightly blocking her hands and legs movements

Calum did the shot quickly and we all waited for it to work

After 2 minutes the crying has decreased and she was starting to breathe better

Calum listen to her lungs while I held her to my chest to help her breathe

"She sounds better let's wait a little bit more for her to calm down" Calum said after listening to her lungs and taking her wrist to take her pulse

I don't know what triggered this but I'm sure it was really serious for her to have a panic attack like that

I just hope it wasn't something that had to do with her mother