every thing is sad

14 | i only think of myself

I only think of myself
when I scale bridges
I can't cross

I only care about myself
when I climb stairwells
already tumbling down

So I get it why
I lay alone
in the gutter
of my own filth

I get why
I die without
a petal
to my name

I only speak to myself
when the poets
have all taken off

I only cry to myself
when the shadows
have taken over

I only die to myself
when people tell me
I am too much

I only lie to myself
when I couldn't
live as such

In my life
I only think of myself
—that's why I'm dead
inside

april 17, 2021