Problem Solving

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"You know what's really going to hurt?" I ask, she lowers her brows curiously "leaving you at the airport."

I'm leaving for London two weeks before her, and that's the longest I'll have ever been without her. It's going to feel like the shittest thing ever.

"We can handle two weeks, baby.. We're super strong."

"Yeah but it's going to feel bad" I frown a little. She pouts and sits down next to me, her hand on my bare thigh.

"I know. But we can FaceTime the entire time, or even just call. And when it's over we're gonna feel so so glad that we aren't long distance."

"We aren't even short distance" I smile, making fun of how we aren't technically even dating. She smiles too

"I guess not.. Do you think that we should change that?" She asks, stroking my thigh with her thumb

"What, now?"

"Not now but, in general. Do you think we should? Would you want that?"

"I don't want anything more than you. I feel a lot for you, a lot more than I feel for anyone else. So yes, I would. Would you?" I ask her. It makes me happy and quite proud of myself that I can talk about things straight up.

"Of course I would.. I don't feel for anyone like I feel for you. You're everything." She holds my hand with the hand and used to have on my thigh. I look at our hands

"You treat me so so well." I look back up at her, she just kisses me

"Because you deserve it." She runs her thumb along my bottom lip "I don't know what I did to deserve you."

"Everything" I smile a little "you did everything you should've done, that's how we are where we are now."

"I guess but.. do you want to be with me?" She asks

"Why wouldn't I?"

"I don't know.. I'm messy." She answers, I shake my head

"I don't think you're messy at all. You're perfect" it makes me think a second though "do you want to be with somebody like me?"

"Somebody like you.." she repeats, smiling. I think she thinks my analogy is funny. "I don't think you can be pinned down like that. There isn't anybody else like you, and that's why I want to be with you. I love everything about you."

"You just said quite a big thing" I say, she nods

"I know. But I think you're worth it, and I think you feel the same about me, even though I don't know why."

"I do feel the same about you. You bring so much good into my life." I get onto her lap and kiss her "I really love everything about you so much."

"You're getting pretty close to saying it there, huh..." she smiles a little "it makes me proud of you. I know we both started off fucked up about love, and now look at us."

"It makes me proud too. You're quite different now, you're a lot better tempered. And even though it was cute when you were meaner, I like you treating me as you do now. It feels mature, grown up.. not just fucking around in high school."

"I was only ever mean because of the sexual confusion" she rolls her eyes a little, I smile

"Well it was sweet. But now everything about us feels different and I like it."

"I like it too, even though you're getting kinda brave." She smirks a little then kisses me "ugh we better stop, we're getting too emotional. We'll both be crying soon because of period hormones."