No Strings

"its filler."

She's right. It is more than a little extreme. I was just caught up in how I was living and how I handled hookups. I ultimately fucked up.

My heart races as I see her typing. I even jump a little, which is embarrassing. I'm behind a screen even, how can she make me jump like that?

'Lana: lmao it just said you read my
              messages. it's good to see you
              online - been a long time
              coming'

I don't know whether or not to reply... but at the same time I don't know if I can resist her...

It takes me an embarrassingly short amount of time to make my decision.

'Me: do you just lurk in our chat for
         something to do?'

'Lana: problem?'

'Me: yeah. It's weird.'

'Lana: idk why you don't like me.
              you used to, then you got
              embarrassed cuz we hooked up'

At that, she makes me embarrassed. I feel like covering my face.

'Me: stop it. not talking about this'

I stand my ground, still wanting to hide away nonetheless.

'Lana: whatever. would you like to get
              lunch with me?'

I cannot believe her.

She forced her way back into my life less than a month ago and now she's inviting me out to lunch with her. I decide not to give her a straight answer.

'Me: um?'

'Lana: what's confusing?'

'Me: you want me to eat with you but
         you don't even like me'

'Lana: don't assume shit.
              I'd like your company, you're
              interesting if nothing else.'

I'm ashamed it does, but it makes me smile the slightest bit. She's quite insulting.

'Me: very flattering.'

'Lana: meet at 12:30 tomorrow'

She sends an address of a restaurant. I know the place, it's expensive. It makes sense for her to want to go there, she has a classy and elegant image she's trying to uphold... she texts me again.

'Lana: it's on me, since you're such a
              primadonna girl'

'Me: what's that supposed to mean?'

'Lana: you want shit bought for you,
              you want it that much you sing
              about it now'

With that, she makes me kind of sink. No one understands that it's a concept album, and I slightly thought and had hoped that she might... but I can't show her that she actually got to me though.

'Me: whatever. See you at lunch'

'Lana: wow, whatever? what'd I do?'

I feel my eyes stinging with tiredness and look over at my clock. 03:42am. I need to sleep. I just put my phone on my end table - she can wait until the morning.

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A/N

I wrote most of this curled up in a ball bc my dogs selfish and taking up THE ENTIRE FUCKING BED. cancel her pls.

It's rlly exciting to be writing this story, because I know that it's got a lot to come lmao. We're only just getting into it. Very exciting.

I hope you enjoyed, trust me it will get going. Thank you for reading and have a nice day <3 stay safe and hydrated. DMs are open