No Strings

"its filler."

Ha.

"We actually have her on here next week as a matter of fact, we'll tell her you stopped by"

"That'd be excellent" I smile.

Once we wrap up the interview I go back out of the studio to see my manager

"Nice interview. You did well" he gives a tiny little smile. It means he's pleased with me.

"Thanks. And I got here on time" I remind him

"Ish.." he looks at his phone "isn't it weird that Lana Del Rey's in all your business now?"

"Why'd you say that?" I ask, he shows me his phone screen on Twitter. I take it to get a better look

'@lanadelrey:
you did such a sweet interview today @marinadiamandis - I hope we can meet again very soon <3'

"Gosh, I can hardly get rid of her..." I give him his phone back

"Seems it. What happened last night anyway? You acted different. Still good, just different." He says, I raise my shoulders a bit to pretend I don't know. "She's a good friend to have I think, keep her close. She's freshly famous."

"I'm not going to use friendship as marketing.. and besides she isn't my friend" I fold my arms

"Whatever, I'll leave you to sort out the little girl-problems you're having on your own." He always finds a way to be a misogynist. He never fails. "You're free for the rest of the day, just call me if you need me."

"You too" I smile a little "see you later" I start to walk away. I called for a taxi as soon as I finished the interview.

"Marina?" He says, I turn around

"Yes?"

"Do try to keep Lana close. It'll make the gays go crazy."

I just ignore that comment and walk away. He's right though - it certainly is making me crazy even now.

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After a few days, I still haven't heard anything from Lana.. I don't know why I'm so bothered. I brought it on myself - I shouldn't have cut her off.

I go onto my phone. It's late at night and I can't sleep.

I have 16 or so unread messages from her. I remember when she sent them for the first times from last year on and I just didn't reply..

I want to read them, even though I'm scared to. I think at this point I have to, because I'm seeing her in real life more and more often.

I have to be brave.

I go into the messages and read a couple. I remember seeing the notifications appear on my screen as they came through.. Eek.

'Lana: you should call me back'
             'why are u so afraid of me lol'
             'aw do you regret it?'
             'Cutting me off JUST for railing
              you is a little extreme don't you
              think?'