I am an addict, had an overdose three times already. My best friend is paid to be with me. My guy best friend is my dealer, my other guy friend is my lover, my philosophy professor is my mother's bitch boy and my mother is one of the country's senat...
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My family, particularly my mom, is the reason why I have anger issues. After naming manggaling sa mall, we came back to the campus. May dala pa akong popcorn mula dun sa cinema na pinagpanooran namin ng movie. Kasama ko si Bullet sa class ko, as usual.
Hinatid kami ni Migo sa class namin. Niyakap niya ako before we got in. Ang usual na pwesto ko, sa likod ng classroom, kung nasaan yung bintana na binuksan ko so that I could get some fresh air. We've got a session later tonight, may bagong bukas na bar two blocks away from campus.
Habang nagtuturo yung prof, may binayaran si Bullet na kaklase namin to write notes in class for us. Nakikinig si Bullet, ako kumakain lang. Dahil lang sa nerd na taga-sulat namin ng notes at sa tenga ni Bullet na nakikinig sa klase, kaya di pa ako bumabagsak ngayong taon. Puro 3 ang grades naming dalawa ni Bullet but just enough that we haven't failed yet. May isang 2 ako tapos merong dalawang 2 si Bullet.
Fun fact about me, I repeated my last year in high school two times and my freshman year here twice too. Last year ko na ngayon dito. It's the first semester. Hindi ako tamad mag-aral, I'm just prolonging my freedom.
Nung break time na, I met one of Daryl's people at bumili ako ng ecstasy from her. Mura lang naman, about 500 pesos ang 5 tablets ng ecstasy. I bought it with cash para walang trace at hindi malalaman ng nanay ko.
Sa CR kami nag-meet ng seller. Nung nakaalis na siya, pumasok ako sa isang cubicle. Pinatong ko sa flat surface sa taas ng toilet yung 20-peso bill at isang tablet. Pinukpok ko yung ecstasy tablet using my mascara until madurog yun. After that, I made it into rows using my gold credit card. Nag-roll ako ng another 20-peso bill at yun ang ginamit ko to get the ecstasy inside my nose. Inubos ko yung limang row ng isang tablet.
It would take minutes before this kicks in. Nung natapos ako, I dusted off the 20-peso bill then tinago ko na yun pati yung niroll ko. Lumabas ako ng cubicle at paglabas ko ng CR, nandun si Bullet, with her headphones around her neck.
Naka-poker face na naman siya sa mga taong nadaan. This is why people say that she's unsociable. Ako lang ang kinakausap niya, but mostly just because it's her job. Isa pa, she only speaks when she's spoken to. Tinanong ko siya before about that and she just said na it's just her upbringing.
While walking on the hallway, nakita ko si Andres. Every girl was turning their head for him. May dala siyang libro. Unang araw niya pa lang dito, eksena na siya sa mga tao.
When he passed by me, he grabbed my arm. Pero lumulutang na ang isip ko. I can see everything floating. Bags, books, notebooks, phones. Para akong nasa anti-gravity na lugar except that people are not floating in the air.
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I was firm, hindi ako nagpahila sa kanya. Pumunta ako sa cafeteria with Bullet. Inaalalayan niya akong maglakad. I told her about how I'm seeing things floating, even her head phones at tumawa ako.
She had no reaction. Damn, this woman is like a rock or a robot. Napapaisip ako kung anong klaseng tao ang mga magulang niya. She never talks about her parents, just her guardian, a guy she calls Tikoy, I think? Like the delicacy na binebenta kapag Chinese New Year.
"Halaaa, di ka sa'kin bumili." Sabi ni Daryl sa'kin nung nakita niya ako. Everyone in this campus knows, well not actually everyone, but Daryl is a seller of drugs in here. Anyone else who sells are his people. What they don't know is, that's his family's business.
At ever since that stupendous Andres got here, hindi na ako kay Daryl directly bumibili. If Andres asks, Daryl is just my friend, yung naglilista ng pangalan sa NA meeting. Hindi ko nga rin gets kung bakit ginagawang weekend job ni Daryl yun e.
"Manahimik ka, baka marinig tayo ng alalay ni Demon Queen," sabi ko kay Daryl. Demon Queen is my mom. "She got a problem?" Rinig kong bulong ni Migo kay Bullet. "Her mom," sagot naman ni Bullet.
Bumili ako ng maraming pagkain, three meals. Kami ni Daryl ang kumain noon dahil apparently, we're both high. Bumili pa ako ng sandwich at tatlong bag ng chips na dinala namin ni Bullet sa next class namin.
Pinagalitan pa ako ng prof dahil kumakain ako sa klase niya and she sent me out. Sinamahan naman ako ni Bullet at nag-gala kami sa campus.
"Sino yung prof natin?" Tanong ko, gusto ko lang maalala para sa susunod alam ko na kung saang class ako pwede palabasin for just eating. It's a nice way to be sent out of a class. "Ms. Seira daw pangalan," sabi ni Bullet at kumain kami ng chips habang naglalakad.
