Anxiety | iwaoi

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"I'm a consenting adult! I've loved you all my life! I waited didn't I? I waited till I was eighteen—and you-you didn't even touch me till I was nineteen—

"Please just—

"I'll be twenty in three weeks! We can move out—

"Four weeks," Hana interrupted in a whisper. She shook her head, "We can never be in a serious relationship and you know it so just stop."

"Tell me you don't love me and I'll stop!"

Oikawa hid as well as he could into a small corner. He was afraid that someone would walk out any second. He held his breath and covered his mouth with both his hands. Did Iwa-chan know?

A minute passed.

"Go. Please." Hana said at last.

"I-I don't want to" Sakura breathed out shakily.

"Then I'll leave."

He watched Hana go. He saw her wiping her face  without a single glance back, completely unaware of Oikawa's presence.

He waited a minute. Then he went in.

Sakura's head snapped up as soon as she heard the door, "Hana!—. . . oh."

Her entire demeanour changed. She wiped the tears off her face sneakily then smirked. Her eyes were puffy and tired nonetheless, "here to gloat? Pretty."

"Stop pretending. Please," he sat on his knees on the floor with her. Her back to the wall, Him facing her, "it's okay. Please just— stop pretending."

She bit her lip and looked down out of humiliation, "how much did you hear?" She asked in a whisper.

"Not much. . . But I know what it's like to— to want someone in your life who doesn't want you in theirs."

"What? Hajime didn't like you before?"

"No. My father wants nothing to do with me. Never did."

She stared at him. Her eyelashes were still wet, "Oh. Sorry."

Oikawa kissed her cheek like she had done before.

She looked at him puzzled for a while and afterwards composed herself as if nothing had happened, "Did you know I broke you and Hajime up for my own entertainment? So you don't have to feel sorry for me okay? I don't need your pity. Go away."

Oikawa shook his head and wiped a stray tear off her face with his shaky hand.

She swatted his hand, "I'm horrible to you! What is wrong with you?"

Oikawa held her left hand, she let him. He sighed, "When. . . When everything gets too much, people like me and you who fake everything. Personalities, expressions, emotions, who hide behind our 'perfect' smiles and our 'perfect' laughs. We . . . get lonely. We need to sit back and breath. People like us need Someone they can depend on when it all gets too much— someone who can knock some sense back into you," Sakura snorted lightly, Oikawa smiled, "I'm lucky. I have my mom— and Iwa-chan."

"Well too bad, pretty, I don't have anyone like that."

"You have me."

Sakura stared at him with raised eyebrows.

"You um. You have me."

"I almost ruined your life—

"When you came to my dorm claiming to be Iwa-chan's girlfriend. I got scared a-and insecure. You were standing there, all gorgeous—

"No way! You're way more gorgeous!"

Oikawa grinned, "No, you—

"No! You—

"Okay us!" he cheered.

"Okay us." Sakura smiled. She leaned forward and hugged Oikawa, who wrapped his arms around her in return, "I'm sorry, for hurting you. It wasn't for my own entertainment I swear. I care a lot for Hajime. He's my little brother as well. There have been times when people would get closer to him just for the money. They would break his heart. I hated them," a pause, "He trusts me. He's way closer to me  than he is to Hanami. . ." She looked down, not wanting to remember the reason they were here in the first place.

"I forgive you. I'm glad Iwa-chan has someone who looks after him."

"I'm sorry."

"I know."

They smiled at each other.

"Hana will come around." Oikawa said gently. Sakura sighed, "it's fine—

"She didn't say no when you asked her if she loves you."

"She . . . She didn't."

Oikawa snorted, "you're so in love with her."

"I'm not!," she grinned at him teasingly, "you're poking fun at me but you better hope you're ready for tomorrow, bitch."

Oikawa's eyes widened, "I completely forgot about that—

"No-no no I was just messing!— look It's gonna be okay. Iwaizumi loves you more than he loves that weird dinosaur—

"Godzilla?"

"Yes that— what the fuck is up with that by the way? Do you have a Dino fetish?"

"What! No!"

"I'm joking. What even is a dinosaur fetish? Anyways stop sidetracking me! What was I saying— oh yeah! Iwaizumi loves you more than that thing so you'll be alright."

"Promise?"

"You bet your little ass I'm never going to let them harm you, pretty." I won't let them lay on finger on the people I care about. Not again, Sakura thought.

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Damn long ass chapter

SAKURA ISNT EVIL SHES JUST MISUNDERSTOOD I AINT FORGET WHEN PEOPLE TRIED TO CANCEL OIKAWA FOR  
??ALMOST?? HITTING KAGEYAMA. SHUT THE FUCK UP!! AS IF U HAVE NEVER FELT A HUMAN EMOTION BEFORE

⚠️ SK8 THE INFINITY SPOILERS AHEAD⚠️

I'm so glad renga is okay lmfao I was losing sleep over it them. Do u guys think they'll be canon by episode 12??
Also joe picking up cherry bridal style 🗣
Can Ad*m go to jail already??? I low-key want Reki to beat Adam in the finale not Langa

- mino/author-chan