Confessions

I Lied

After a moment of silence i sigh and say "Gunner, I think you need to know the truth" i start to shake "know the truth about what?" asked Gunner "my... my past" i say not making eye contact with him "oh, do you want to go somewhere private?" he asked me I nod "okay, let's go" says Gunner i nod again "isn't your car broken?" i asked "not anymore, I fixed it" says Gunner "oh, well that's good" i said looking at him taking all his features like it's my last thing i will ever see. "Where do you want to go?" asked Gunner "anywhere but here" i say as i got in his car "okay how about a cafe?" he asked me as he starts the engine "sounds good" i say "awesome" says Gunner. The car ride was silent I kept thinking about what am I going to start out "oh yeah I had a boyfriend before and he raped me and scared me for life" I think sarcastically "babe, we are here" says Gunner "oh gosh this is beautiful" i say to him "I knew you would love it" Gunner said putting his arm around my waist "I don't know how to start" I tell him "take your time" Gunner tells me. I take a deep breath when the unthinkable happened.

"Oh no, not here not now"  I say looking at the door "what?" asked Gunner "Please hide me" I beg Gunner "why?" he asked me when my ex walks over "well, well, well look what we have here" says Felix "hi" i say quietly hiding behind Gunner "don't touch her" growls Gunner I grip onto his back pocket accidental "Felix i don't want anything to do with you anymore" i tell him "No? well let see about that" says Felix "No, not again" i say practically hugging Gunner around his torso "I said don't touch her" says Gunner getting up "she's my girlfriend, I can do what ever i want" says Felix Gunner looks at me "I WAS YOUR GIRLFRIEND!" i shout Gunner looks hurt "I though you where going to tell Pretty boy here about us" says Felix "that's why we here in the first place ass hat" i say to him "and to be honest, i never loved you the way I love Entoan" I tell him letting go of Gunner. "Oh so you never loved me? All the times i have said i loved you" says Felix "all of them was a lie" i say to him "and i don't care if you are hurt, I am happy with him" i look at Gunner kissing his cheek he smiles at me "fine if he breaks your heart don't be crying back to me" says Felix "he will never be like you, you scared me for life" I scold sitting back down.

As he walks off Gunner sits back down "you had a boyfriend before me?" says Gunner looking hurt I sighed "I did, but he was abusive and controlling it was nothing like a relationship" i tell him "why did you stay with him?" he asked me "well, I was terrified about what he would do to me and my... my Brother" i explain as my hand goes to my brother's neck less "so, my brother was my only one who cared about me and when i told him about what Felix did to me he was furious with him an well he went in his car to a bar i think and started drinking, I never saw him again" i whipped the tears forming in my eyes. I look at him for the first time he just got up walked over to me picked me up and hugged me kissing my tears away 'I love you more than life itself and i won't let anyone or anything hurt you" says Gunner tearing up i whip his tears away "I love you more than I love books, and that's lot" I smile through the tears. He looks down at me "you mean that?" he says with eye's sparkling "of course I do, You care about me like nobody else did, besides of my Brother" I confessed.

We walked out of the Cafe "I'm glad you told me" says Gunner holding my hand "Me too, i was scared what you would think of me" I tell him "I think you were brave today, You held your ground, I am so proud of you"  smiles Gunner "thanks, I was shaking though" I confessed "I could feel you shaking behind me" smirks Gunner I look away "That sounded dirty, my bad" says Gunner "you think?" i said laughing he rolls his eyes "Oh, Gunner I have too tell you something" i remembered taking Photography class soon "whats that?" asked Gunner "I am taking photography class soon, and I really want to take some pictures of you" i blushed without knowing "what kind of pictures?" he asked me "Not those pictures if that's what you're asking" I face palmed "you sure?" teases Gunner "yes I'm sure you weirdo" i tell him "okay so were do you wanna go? There's not alot in this city" Gunner tells me "Take me to where ever you want" i tell him "There's this old brick building up the road" says Gunner I nod excitedly.