Dawn (Book I)

Chapter 3: Apologies and Explanations

Hello:) so the last chapter ended with a cliffhanger...eh...sorta. I know the anticipation and curiosity as to what will happen next would have built up a ton. So without wasting time let's get into it.

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BELLA
Charlie was about to say something but the next thing I knew Edward dropped to his knees in front of me, head bowed as if he was ashamed. One would literally say that he was grovelling at my feet.

I was confused for a second and then he looked up. His face was twisted in anguish and pain. How I wanted to release all the pain he had. I wanted ask him to stand back up but my body was frozen with shock and I could not do anything. I just sat there staring at him. Seeing him so broken, broke me further.

We stayed that way for a long time, it felt like hours. He broke the silence first, "I am so so sorry Bella!" He broke into tearless sobs. I briefly registered Charlie go to his room. He knew I did not want an audience to this.

Edward continued sobbing still, "I am so sorry Bella. I did not think my leaving would affect you so much. I wanted you to have a chance at a normal, happy and human life, the way it should have been before you met me. I-I thought this would help you get a closure from my chapter and you would have moved on. But I was wrong. I was very wrong as I always am. And you were right. Always."

I was surprised. My brain could not register all this.

He went on gazing at me with blazing topaz eyes which could only be described with one word...sincerity and honesty, " I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm sorry for being such a big idiot. I'm sorry for having such a bad judgement. I'm sorry for being such a bad person. I'm sorry for leaving. I'm sorry for lying to you. I'm sorry for taking so long to realise my mistake. I'm sorry for everything I put you through. I'm sorry for being such a terrible boyfriend to you because you deserve so so much more. I'm sorry. Please forgive me. I-Ill do anything to earn your love and trust back. Please give me another chance. Please.", He begged. That's when I snapped back to reality.

"Wh-what..? Edward stop." He looked at me face still twisted with pain. "Y-you said you lied to me? What did you lie to me about?..."

It took him a moment to understand what I said....

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EDWARD
I was confused. Then I realised I haven't been very clear about my motivations. But how could she believe me so easily that day? The idea of me not loving my precious Bella was utterly absurd.

"Bella, love, that day when I told you I didn't love you anymore..." I began, "it was the blackest kind of blasphemy. I loved you then and still do and will love you for the rest of my existence with all my heart and soul. As if there was a way to make me stop loving you. I would rather just die that stop loving you. I thought my leaving would do you good even though it hurt me to do so. I was much too selfish to leave you before but I did then because I told myself it was best for you. And that's all that matters to me. I did not realise that even if I left you it would not do any of us any good. I'm sorry Bella. I really am." I couldn't speak anymore but I had to ask her the most vital question. Still I waited for to say something. I was still kneeling at her feet and I stared at the floor not having the courage to look into her eyes any longer.

Moments passed but she sat frozen there. I decided that instead of asking her, I would show her. I leaned forward so that I was really close to her face. I kept my eyes open waiting for her to stop me or for her to kiss me herself. When she did not do anything, I leaned in closer. There was only an inch of space between our lips and that's when she turned her head away. Rejection and pain washed through me but I knew I deserved it.

Then she said, "Edward, please don't. It would be hard enough for me when you leave again without this."

I was confused for a second. Hadn't she realised yet that I was never leaving her again? But then I was filled with understanding and relief. Understanding because she thought I was going to leave because I once did leave her even after promising to never leave. Relief because she did not reject me, she turned away because she did not want to be hurt again.

I asked her one simple question, the one I should have asked long before, "Bella do you think you could give me a second chance to love you after all that I did to hurt you?", I whispered.

I could see she was too shocked to answer but even though I could not read her mind, her eyes gave it away. And I leaned forward kissed her hungrily. The moment our lips met there was electricity coursing through me. I wrapped my hands around her waist. A moment later she was kissing me back, her hands around my neck, her fingers entangled in my hair. It was nothing like the kisses we had ever shared before. It was filled with need and pain and love and desperation. Earlier we had laid out strict rules about kissing because I did not want to hurt her with my supernatural strength but in that moment I thought, rules be damned. I needed her. I needed her to know I wouldn't leave again. I needed to hold her close to finally realise that she forgave me. It was like a dream and had I not been a vampire, I would have thought I was dreaming. How much I missed holding her close to my chest like this! How much I loved this silly human girl!

I broke away from the kiss first when I noticed she stopped breathing to kiss me just like she used to do before. What would I do without this fragile human girl! She was my life-no, she was the reason of my existence.

She took a few breaths and then leaned in closer and whispered, "I will ways love you Edward. There is no way I could not."

Those were the words I needed to hear, I smiled and said, "You're mine and you always will be, my sweet love."

She giggled and replied, "As you're mine babe..."

(End of chapter 3)

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Now, who doesn't love a happy ending. So...is this the end of the book? Nope its isn't...there is a lot more to come. And btw everytime I've reread Twilight, the fact that they don't really have nicknames for each other (Except when Edward calls Bella, 'love') bothers me a lot. So in this book we will have some nicknames for them...shall we? Please vote and comment :)