You Make it Possible-Under Re-Write

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I didn't expect tonight to be the night I gave myself to Kai, but I wanted him and I feel like I've waited long enough. We love each other and I was ready for this.

After about 15 minutes Kai emerges from the steaming bathroom with one towel around his waist and the other being used to dry his hair. His head was down as he rustles the towel through his wet hair, and when he finally looks up at me his jaw damn near drops to the floor.

I was laid out across the bed on my stomach, my head resting on my hands as I peered up at him.

"What are you doing?" Kai asks with a cheeky smirk as he walks to his side of the bed and towards his suitcase. When he turns his back to me to grab his clothes, I get off the bed slowly and wrap my arms around his waist and press my cheek to the hard muscles of his back.

"Waiting for you" I say and slowly trace my fingers over the hard lines of the tattoo on his back while leaving kisses to each spot that raised with goosebumps.

"Lilith" he says in a strained tone as he slowly turns around and gently takes my wrists and holds them at my sides. "Not tonight baby"

I try to release my wrists from his hold, but he keeps a firm grasp.

"Why not?" I pout.

"It wouldn't be right." He says as he presses sweet kisses to my cheeks and forehead.

He loosens the grip on my wrists and I instantly place them on his chest and run them up to wrap them around his neck and pull him into a heavy kiss.

Kai grips my hips and pushes me back till the back of my knees hit the bed and I fall onto my back. Once again he restrains me by holding my arms over my head as he hovers over me.

"You said you wanted me earlier. Remember?" I say remembering what he said during our intimate moment at the river. "I can feel you want me right now." I add in a lower tone.

Kai frowns and shakes his head like he's trying to reason with himself. "I do want you. Really fucking bad." He says with a chuckle "but you're not in your right mind for that right now." He says in a serious tone, loosing all the desire in his voice.

I huff and do my best to wriggle out of his hold. Kai sighs and releases me, allowing me to scoot back onto my side of the bed and get under the covers.

I was in my right mind or else I wouldn't be doing this.

"Don't be mad at me" he says sadly as he crawls onto the bed and scoots behind me. He's trying to stay serious but I can feel that he finds this situation funny.

"I'm not" I say in a clearly annoyed tone.

Kai sighs and wraps his arms around my waist and tugs me close to him.

"Do you want to get dressed now?" He asks clearly trying to hide his amusement.

I huff and mutter a no. I did want to put clothes on because I was embarrassed but I didn't want to give him the satisfaction. The worst part about it was he could probably feel every bit of my annoyance and embarrassment.

"Don't be embarrassed."

I'm snapped out of my thoughts at the sound of Kai's voice.

"Shut uuuup" I groan and cover my face. "Can't my feelings just be mine? Like once?" I say as I lay my head back against the seat and look at his side profile.

I can see the smile he's trying to hide.

"I'm sorry I just don't want you to feel embarrassed." He says turning to me. His eyes show nothing but love and humor, and I can't help but laugh.

"I guess" I say in an exaggerated sigh.

"Are we almost there?" I ask once I notice the time.

"Yeah we'll be there in about 20 minutes." He says with a wide smile and rests his hand on my thigh.

"What are you so excited about?" I chuckle.

Kai side glances at me and gives me a flirty smirk.

"You really wanna know?" He asks in a teasing tone.

"Well now I'm not so sure"

Kai laughs and shakes his head, then squeezes my thigh and raises it up a little higher.

"I'm just thinking about how hot you're gonna look while practicing combat." He days giving my thigh another squeeze.

"Jesus Christ" I mutter as I stifle a laugh.

"Oh please tell me you brought shorts." He groans.

"Leggings. Why?"

"Even better" he smirks.

"Kai!" I screech as he pushes his hand higher up my thigh almost to my crotch and squeezes it again.

"I'm sorry I can't help myself!" He laughs in a teasing tone. "You got me all hot and bothered last night and now it's all I can think about." He adds with a devilish smirk.

"Well think quietly you perv"

"Hey I didn't call you a perv while you were assaulting me last night!" He remarks.

"Well you clearly enjoyed it so it's not assault is it?" I respond in a smug tone.

"Oh so you don't enjoy hearing about it?" He looks at me quickly. "Your body tells me otherwise." He says lowly.

"My body?"

"I can feel how I make you feel remember."

"It's not fair." I state.

"You feel it too, just not as good as I can" he adds with a smirk.

"It's impossible being around you" I groan

"No it's impossible to hide things from me" he states.

"Whatever. Perv"

"I can't wait till you can feel all the things I'm feeling." He adds.

I look over at him again and swoon at the adoring look in his eyes. It's so intense and pure that I can hardly believe it's me he's looking at.

I may not be able to feel everything he can, but with the way I feel when he's around, it can't be too far off.