Loving you

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My eyes got big and I tried to get up"What are you doing"  I said raising up and she pushed me back down "See I planned on coming over here and us having a romantic time, but I see you wanna have it the hard way" she said then ripped off my pants. I scooted back kicking but she grabbed a hold of my ankles pulled me back down to her "Don't run" she said smirking and I started crying "Brat come on don't do this" I said trying to get up again but she pushed me down and started choking me again"NO I TRIED THE NICE WAY" she yelled in my face while I gasped for air. She forced my underwear off and I screamed and kicked trying to get her off of me "STOP FIGHTING IT" she yelled then slapped me full force in my face. She started kissing on my neck while taking off the rest of my clothes, I pushed her trying to get her off but it wasn't working. She sat up and I tried scooting away but she just grabbed my legs and pulled me back close to her lining the strap up to my entrance. I kicked and moved around trying to get away and she grabbed me holding me in place.

She slammed into me and I screamed feeling my walls rip. She slammed into me again with more force then before making me bleed "AHHH BRAT PLEASE" I screamed with tears running down my face trying to get away from her. She ignored me continuing what she was doing, she came down to kiss me and I turned my head she grabbed my face roughly and forced her lips on mine while i cried."You gone learn to love me"  She said then started giving rough strokes while I screamed and pushed her trying to get her off me and stop the pain I was feeling "B-Brat s-stop p-please it h-urts" I sobbed out but she ignored me going harder. Eventually I gave up and just laid there while she moaned and grunted in my ear "You like that" she asked and I didn't say nothing just laid there crying until she was done.

It felt like years but eventually she stopped getting up she sat me up and put the strap covered in blood up to my mouth tapping my lips "Open up" she said said and I shook my head with tears streaming down my face. "OPEN YOUR FUCKING MOUTH" she yelled and when I shook my head again she punched me in my mouth making me bleed. I still didn't open my mouth, I refuse to do that. "OPEN IT" she yelled again punching me in my stomach and when I refused again she got mad and started beating me all over my body aiming more at my face yelling at me to do it while I screamed trying to get away from her.  I took all her hits but not once did I open my mouth. Eventually she gave up and put her pants back on "Hope we can do this again one day" she said smirking at me then kissed my lips walking out.

I pulled my knees up to my chest and sat there crying in in a puddle of my on blood. It's you're fault. You should've fought harder. Wait until bey finds out. No one is gonna look at you the same. You're weak. "Shut up, shut up, SHUT UP" I yelled to the voices hitting my head crying harder. I got up and fell to the floor not being able to stand, it was so much pain coming from my women hood I could hardly move. I crawled to the restroom and turned on the shower, I used the tub help me up and got in scrubbing every inch of my body while sobbing. I felt so dirty and disgusted in myself and no matter how hard I scrubbed the feeling didn't go away. I got out the shower and looked in the mirror seeing my face and body was all bruised up. I looked down and limped out the restroom going to my room to put on some clothes using to walls to help me on the way. 

I changed into one of beyonces favorite hoodie and some sweats. When I was done I left out of that room not being able to be in there any longer and went to chanel room getting in her bed and getting under the covers. I kept replaying what happened over and over in my head and ended up crying myself to sleep.

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"Cookie, cookie wake up" I heard feeling myself being shook. I opened my eyes and sat up wincing in pain. seen chanel looking at me with a worried expression "What happened, are you ok, why is there blood in your bed, are you bleeding, why is it so much, oh my god what happened to your face, who did this" she asked a million question and I just bursted into tears. She took me into her arms rubbing my back "What happened baby" she asked and I shook my head sobbing into her. "Ok we don't have to talk about it if you don't want but that was a lot of blood I think you need to go to a hospital" she said and I didnt say nothing I just continued to cry.